So since a slew of people were asking to view my work as in my exceptionally random photography work, I created a gallery section & I’m slowly sorting through my albums to see what exactly I want to share with the world at large.
I’ve learned to appreciate more of what I have these days now that Jason’s gone. I actually made it through the day without crying for a change! So that was nice… Still need to e-mail James which I’m going to do shortly. Its not fair to keep him in the dark when maybe I can offer him a little insight to ease his pain as well as my own. It still hurts but I count my blessings now a lot more then I used to.
I hope someday sooner as opposed to later I won’t be as sad anymore. I can’t e-mail him anymore but I will “stay in touch” through here. It helps me to deal, especially since I think I will forever be haunted by him telling me that hearing from me brightened his day and I wasn’t there when he needed me the most. Besides its my domain, my blog and no one needs to read them if they don’t want to.
Although I think the hellish nightmare/roller coaster of grieve and guilt has at the very least slowed down a little. I’m a little bothered by the fact that they still haven’t buried him yet. Yeah I understand that an autopsy is necessary to determine the cause of death but I’m fairly certain that’s was established at the scene. Again I’ll spare you the details that I do know…
In any case tragedy will either bring out the best and/or the worst in people and I have to say that I’m pretty fortunate to have the amount of people in my life that I do that are SO AWESOME! Words can’t express how exceptionally grateful I am to have such people in my life. I know I keep saying it, but I’m not going to assume that they know anymore.