{"id":1162,"date":"2010-11-09T18:29:56","date_gmt":"2010-11-09T23:29:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/modologyworld.net\/steph\/?p=1162"},"modified":"2010-12-19T12:01:17","modified_gmt":"2010-12-19T17:01:17","slug":"a-note-to-my-16-year-old-self","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/modologyworld.net\/steph\/?p=1162","title":{"rendered":"A note to my 16 year old self…"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\\’ve read several, rather poignant blog posts by people who wrote letters to the sixteen year old selves.\u00a0 Kind of brings to mind: If I knew then, what I know now, right?<\/p>\n

Well I thought about this long and hard and what, given the opportunity, I would say to myself back then.<\/p>\n

A lot of people reflected upon a lot of things.\u00a0 Relationships and their overall appearance taking the top two places.<\/p>\n

My past is somewhat sketchy, full of a lot of turmoil, angst, sex, drugs, alcohol and a ton of other things that gave my mother gray hair, a friend of mine a reason to say I told you so and lots of other people to reflect that they didn\\’t know and had they known they would have done something.\u00a0 Except there\\’s a reason they didn\\’t know.<\/p>\n

I chose not to tell them. <\/em><\/p>\n

Very much like I\\’m choosing not to tell you or anyone else now either at this moment.<\/p>\n

Why? <\/em><\/p>\n

Because it makes people in my life and even the ones who are not, emotionally unstable.\u00a0 It brings forth pity, sympathy, looks of shock and wide eyed horror among other things.\u00a0 I don\\’t need that, certainly don\\’t want it and neither do you.<\/p>\n

Although…<\/p>\n

As I reflect upon my life which is something I\\’ve been doing a lot of lately; I do wonder what life would have been like had I taken a different route, not dated the same boy for seven years of my life that were the most crucial of my growing up (15-22), not met some of the people I have and done some of the things that I have done.\u00a0 What if I had gone right instead of left or vice versa?<\/p>\n

Not that I did either of those things, I took an ATV and created my own path. <\/em><\/p>\n

So I wonder to myself, what if I had taken a different path?\u00a0 Would I be the same person that I am now?\u00a0 What would I have been like had I gone a different way?\u00a0 I\\’ll never know, what I do know now however is that if I was to meet my 16 year old self now at the age of 32 I would tell myself this:<\/p>\n