Wow, that\\’s really all I have to say for the moment…\u00a0 What a strange week its been around here!\u00a0 Where in God\\’s name do I start?\u00a0 There\\’s lots that\\’s totally worth mentioning so be prepared for one long ass post.\u00a0 I suggest you grab some popcorn and get comfortable lol.<\/p>\n
So lets backtrack just a little bit here…\u00a0 A couple of weeks ago I sent a text message to someone at random and got a reply back saying \\”I thought you weren\\’t talking to me anymore\\” all because of something I had posted via my twitter newsfeed <\/a>.\u00a0 Which was (I\\’m assuming) something to do with my \\”date\\” with Ian.\u00a0 OK first of all, I answer to NO ONE; that should be established from the get go. \u00a0 So to sum that up, if I\\’m NOT your girlfriend then really I have no claims to you and you have zero claims to me.\u00a0 Regardless of how much I may\/may not like you, that\\’s irrelevant if you drop in and out of my life like a damn yo-yo.\u00a0 I don\\’t care how busy you are, *if* I<\/strong> matter that<\/em> much to someone, find the time.\u00a0 It only takes a minute to at least make the effort even if its only a simple text message.<\/p>\n I get busy too, but I still put forth the effort, especially now.\u00a0 You see I felt<\/span> still feel guilty (a little less so now) when Jason died for not being there.\u00a0 Mostly because I was a little too wrapped up in my own life to be there for my friend and now he\\’s gone and I miss him dearly.\u00a0 Maybe that e-mail wouldn\\’t have made a difference and I\\’m pretty sure it wouldn\\’t have but at least I would have known that I had put forth the effort to let him know that I was there and that I still cared.\u00a0 Now I can\\’t do that anymore and its still very heartbreaking.\u00a0 In any case, I\\’m still \\”free\\” to do what with whomever I choose seeing as how I highly doubt at this point that anything will ever come out of the situation that I\\’m referring to.<\/p>\n Even if I would prefer that it did (which I am not discussing)…\u00a0 You never know.\u00a0 Bottom line is this: I don\\’t think its fair for someone to expect me to put my life on hold for them because they\\’re too busy for me right now.\u00a0 Yeah I get that work can be a time whore, but if you treat me this way now; how much of a difference would it make *IF* I was in fact that persons actual girlfriend?\u00a0 That\\’s crossed my mind on several occasions in spite of that strange hold they have over me…\u00a0 You snooze you loose!\u00a0 Should have made the time if you end up missing out, at this rate I DON\\’T see that happening. \u00a0 But still, if it does, they have no one to blame but themselves. \u00a0 How is this relevant to what I\\’m about to post?\u00a0 You\\’ll see in a minute, I\\’m getting to that…<\/p>\n So in my quest for a new job, which was an epic pain in my ass I finally nailed one!\u00a0 I was starting to get a little concerned about that whole situation since I\\’d sent out countless (read 45) CV\\’s and didn\\’t get a call back and for the life of me couldn\\’t figure out why not…\u00a0 Then it dawned on me, all of my job titles were \\”higher\\” up positions as in executive Chef, sous Chef and so forth.\u00a0 Whereas most people are hiring cooks.\u00a0 Yes there is<\/em> a distinct difference between the two.\u00a0 Mostly skills, qualifications, education and experience.<\/p>\n So I \\”dumbed down\\” my job titles and then all of a sudden, I become miss popular and people started calling THANK GOD!\u00a0 Anyway had a job interview on Tuesday, job trial for said place on Thursday and got hired YAY!\u00a0 I don\\’t think I start until Monday, waiting for that ever so elusive e-mail from the new boss to let me know!\u00a0 No more getting up in the morning for me!\u00a0 Although some of those shifts fall into the \\”relationship killer\\” category I\\’ll deal.\u00a0 That\\’s the life of this industry and few understand it unless you\\’ve been a part of it before.<\/p>\n So Friday was my last day at Gryphon and its ending was bittersweet to say the least.\u00a0 I met lots of great people & made some fabulous friends along the way while I was there.\u00a0 But alas my employment there was not meant to be for a number of reasons, none of which I am going to disclose, since most people that I physically talk to already know.\u00a0 In any case I had a long talk with my former boss and left on a positive note. Which was nice, its not that either she or myself are bad people.\u00a0 I learned a lot and there were times when she really helped me out and I never forgot those times.\u00a0 So in spite of how I left, I still went out and bought her flowers just to say thank you.<\/p>\n In the end, Jason\\’s death affected me in a number of ways that I didn\\’t even take into consideration.\u00a0 So needless to say, things are going to change.\u00a0 Hopefully for the better, perhaps not but I\\’ll never know if I don\\’t try.\u00a0 Its been almost 2 months now since he\\’s been gone and it still hurts but not nearly as bad as it once did which is something I\\’m eternally grateful for.\u00a0 I\\’m pretty sure I\\’ll always be emotionally retarded over the whole thing seeing as how his death was just so damn senseless!\u00a0 But in any case, his death really made me re-evaluate a lot of things and put them into perspective for me.<\/p>\n So the other day I was getting waxed & I jokingly mentioned that I had a hot date on Friday ( I actually had a party to go to).\u00a0 She says oh your single? Then we got to talking about random things associated with dating and what not.\u00a0 I didn\\’t think much of it until someone passed a message onto me that so & so wanted to speak with me and could I please come in when I had a free minute.\u00a0 I looked a little perplexed because its not as if my cosmetician and I have any type of \\”relationship\\” outside of pedicures and getting waxing done.\u00a0 So I went in there, and joking said what are my eyebrows going to fall off?\u00a0 She pulls me into the back room, says she has a favor to ask.\u00a0 Long story short, a member of their family needs residency and wants ME to marry him so that he can stay here.\u00a0 On paper only of course but its not that simple.\u00a0 Granted I knew little about the immigration process until Carly<\/a> moved to VW to be with her beloved. \u00a0 In any case I know enough now to know that unless I actually want to be with someone that bad, its really far from worth the risk\/responsibility\/headaches that are associated with such matters.\u00a0 Needless to say, that was really random & totally odd!<\/p>\n So let\\’s talk about this whole dating thing now shall we…\u00a0 I went out last night and later on someone came over.\u00a0 Doesn\\’t totally qualify as a \\”date\\” per say, we just hung out and watched a movie.\u00a0 No in case any of you are wondering, I didn\\’t get any…\u00a0 As much as I would LOVE to divulge the details of one rather amusing (to me at least, hugely embarrassing for him) incident I won\\’t because well, its just mean to do so.\u00a0 However if you really want to know, feel free to ask and I will spill (no pun intended)! So I thought I should compile a list of things that have happened\/been said throughout the years that would likely fall into the \\”dating don\\’t category\\” so read on kids, because this might save your ass and\/or your date with someone.\u00a0 Even more so if your going on a date with me \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n I could go one, but suffice to say I\\’m sure I\\’ll find something to add to this list later on.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Wow, that\\’s really all I have to say for the moment…\u00a0 What a strange week its been around here!\u00a0 Where in God\\’s name do I start?\u00a0 There\\’s lots that\\’s totally worth mentioning so be prepared for one long ass post.\u00a0 I suggest you grab some popcorn and get comfortable lol. 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