{"id":964,"date":"2010-07-01T15:39:29","date_gmt":"2010-07-01T19:39:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/modologyworld.net\/steph\/?p=964"},"modified":"2010-09-07T18:28:19","modified_gmt":"2010-09-07T22:28:19","slug":"tick-tock","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/modologyworld.net\/steph\/?p=964","title":{"rendered":"Tick tock"},"content":{"rendered":"

What the fuck?\u00a0 That\\’s the sound of Steph\\’s biological clock…<\/p>\n

To coin a phrase from a friend:\\” Sweet baby Jesus I\\’m fucking screwed!\\”<\/p>\n

OK well she doesn\\’t usually say that, but close!
\nShe uses sweet baby Jesus a lot.\u00a0 Now I can see why!<\/em><\/p>\n

So I had a horrific revelation of sorts the other day…\u00a0 I work in a daycare.\u00a0 Which is beyond hilarious if you really knew me.\u00a0 Why?\u00a0 Because I am<\/span> was so anti baby it would blow your mind!\u00a0 When I worked at the tea room, parents would think that we were their babysitters.\u00a0 One time I told someone that if they didn\\’t keep an eye on their child who was being utterly disruptive to other patrons (running around and into my kitchen and hanging out at other people\\’s tables while mommy was playing catch up with a friend), that I would duct tape them to the chair.\u00a0 Not to mention the mother who was breastfeeding her baby FACING the huge bay window of the tea shop not covered up what so ever.\u00a0 I\\’m not talking a discreet breastfeeding display here either, she may as well had her whole shirt off .\u00a0 OK, no<\/strong><\/span> I don\\’t have a problem with breastfeeding in public (never have<\/em>).\u00a0 So before all you public breast feeding pro choice people come and burn my house down, chill out for a moment.<\/p>\n

It sucks to live your life according to others standards of decency but you can\u2019t discount that they will often have an affect on you and yours so I\u2019m trying to tread lightly and find that middle ground. <\/em>I personally could care less, I have my own pair of breasts to stare at all the time and they\\’re fan-freaking-tastic if I do say so myself \ud83d\ude09<\/em><\/p>\n

Breasts provide nutrition for the little\\’s, but they\\’re also<\/span> sexual things as well.\u00a0 Argue all you want<\/a> about the topic but its true.\u00a0 For example: This:<\/p>\n

\\\"Not<\/a>vs<\/p>\n

This:<\/p>\n

\\\"\\\"<\/a>Anyway this isn\\’t about breastfeeding, but regardless of how natural it IS, some people aren\\’t cool with that.\u00a0 IE: my uptight customers, or even me as I\\’m setting your scones down on your table and getting a face full of boob (I\\’m not thirsty thanks, and I have enough milk in my coffee already<\/em>).\u00a0 Feed your kids all you want, I\\’m all about saving money!\u00a0 Except maybe be a\u00a0 little discreet about it, there\\’s no need to show off all the goodies right?\u00a0 There\\’s nothing wrong with it, and I fail to see anything sexual about breastfeeding either mind you.\u00a0 Although I am sure that countless others would beg to differ.<\/p>\n

I\\’m currently waiting for the hate brigade to show up at my door.<\/em><\/p>\n

That and countless other things that have turned me off from wanting to have kids…\u00a0 Like stretch marks, I have enough of those already thank you.<\/p>\n

I don\\’t need more.\u00a0 Do. Not. Want. Thanks. <\/em><\/p>\n

Then I met Elliot.<\/p>\n

Swoon! <\/em><\/p>\n

I seen him during the tour my co-worker was giving him of the daycare.\u00a0 They always make a stop in the kitchen to introduce them to the Chef (me) and show them the facilities that we have in store.<\/p>\n

It was love at first sight. <\/em><\/p>\n

One look at those huge blue eyes, two chins, those itty bitty feet, chubby little hands and the most perfect cupid bows mouth would have you falling for this adorable little as well.\u00a0 OMG I have never in a million years been so smitten by someone\\’s baby!<\/p>\n

With the exception of my niece and nephew of course, because they\\’re perfect!\u00a0 Not to mention my friends little\\’s OMG they\\’re so cute!
\n<\/em><\/p>\n

Anyway Elliot is my latest \\”boyfriend\\” at the daycare.\u00a0 They say the way to a man\\’s heart is through his stomach and seeing as how all the little boys at the daycare love me, this must be true.<\/p>\n

I\\’m quite popular with the little\\’s for this reason.<\/em><\/p>\n

Anyway moving along…\u00a0 My period was<\/span> is all messed up for a few reasons, and now that I\\’m not on my pills for the moment, my damn hormones seem to be all over the place.\u00a0 So Wed. I made my morning trek into the nursery and seen my adorable sweetheart Elliot and this feeling of longing came over me.\u00a0 I didn\\’t want to put him back down, I just wanted to hold this child forever and take him home.<\/p>\n

Wait WHAT!?!\u00a0 *enter the sound of screeching here*<\/em><\/p>\n

Dear God my first though was…<\/p>\n

I\\’m turning into one of those people. <\/em><\/p>\n

You know, the one\\’s whose ages start to creep up on you and stuff.\u00a0 I just turned 32, this is what I have to look forward to for the next few years, you know until I get all menopausal like?\u00a0 Or con<\/span>, bribe<\/span> find a Dr.who will tie my tubes, or better yet, just yank it ALL out?<\/p>\n

Because my OBGYN won\\’t *Le sigh*<\/em><\/p>\n

Are you kidding me?!? <\/em><\/p>\n

Ah but sweet Elliot, I have to get a picture of this kid, because he\\’s just so damn cute!\u00a0 As I was leaving on Wed, I of course had to stop in and fight the urge to steal<\/span> say good-bye\u00a0 to my adorable sweetheart Elliot.\u00a0 I put him down to leave and as soon as I turned and walked away he started to cry \ud83d\ude41\u00a0 I turned around and looked back at him and he looked at me with one lone tear rolling down his cheek with the worlds biggest pout on those lips and my heart melted.<\/p>\n

Then of course reality kicks in, the cost, the time, did I mention the money?\u00a0 Oh yeah and then I can turn into one of those<\/em> mommy bloggers.\u00a0 You know the type that have NOTHING to say other then what their children ate\/slept\/shit\/barfed?\u00a0 Yeah I can\\’t stand them either.\u00a0 While some<\/em> are a wealth of information when you have no where to turn (I like useful things like that!) I like my<\/em> mommy blogger friends\/people I read the best.\u00a0 Because while they do in fact talk about their children, they have other things to talk about as well.<\/p>\n

So that at least makes it interesting to read and I can on occasion go AWE!\u00a0 Oh yeah and feel my uterus contract with need and longing…<\/em><\/p>\n

No only do they talk about their adorable children, there\\’s things like dealing with the possibility of having another… <\/em><\/p>\n

This is why I love Tracy<\/a>!<\/p>\n

Also not to mention that reading her last blog post<\/a>, essentially took a sledge hammer to my clock and smashed it to pieces, this is another reason why I love her!<\/p>\n

Thank you sweet baby Jesus for that! <\/em><\/p>\n

<\/em><\/p>\n


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