So since a slew of people were asking to view my work as in my exceptionally random photography work, I created a gallery section & I\’m slowly sorting through my albums to see what exactly I want to share with the world at large.

I\’ve learned to appreciate more of what I have these days now that Jason\’s gone.  I actually made it through the day without crying for a change!  So that was nice…  Still need to e-mail James which I\’m going to do shortly.  Its not fair to keep him in the dark when maybe I can offer him a little insight to ease his pain as well as my own.  It still hurts but I count my blessings now a lot more then I used to.

I hope someday sooner as opposed to later I won\’t be as sad anymore.  I can\’t e-mail him anymore but I will \”stay in touch\” through here.  It helps me to deal, especially since I think I will forever be haunted by him telling me that hearing from me brightened his day and I wasn\’t there when he needed me the most.  Besides its my domain, my blog and no one needs to read them if they don\’t want to.

Although I think the hellish nightmare/roller coaster of grieve and guilt has at the very least slowed down a little.  I\’m a little bothered by the fact that they still haven\’t buried him yet.  Yeah I understand that an autopsy is necessary to determine the cause of death but I\’m fairly certain that\’s was established at the scene.  Again I\’ll spare you the details that I do know…

In any case tragedy will either bring out the best and/or the worst in people and I have to say that I\’m pretty fortunate to have the amount of people in my life that I do that are SO AWESOME!  Words can\’t express how exceptionally grateful I am to have such people in my life.  I know I keep saying it, but I\’m not going to assume that they know anymore.