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The 2009 review

Well the year is almost over…  There\’s lots I could say to sum it up but to coin a phrase from Catlin \”2009 for me was the absolute highest highs and the lowest lows. I experienced pure, unadulterated joy and rock bottom, brutal sadness. I felt about as angry as I ever have.\” Hope she doesn\’t mind, but in all honestly I really couldn\’t have said it better myself!  Brilliantly put Catlin, that\’s all I have to say 🙂  Reading other people\’s blogs has its advantages since it was Catlin that pointed out that Gillian answers a serious of questions every year after skimming through them I thought well you know, why not?  So thank you Gillian for making this blog entry a little easier!

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

Lots of things!  Went to places I\’ve never been before and more importantly became a little more true to myself.  Oh and I went boxing day shopping with my mom & sister and didn\’t buy a  single hoodie!  (I have a hoodie addiction)  Seriously…  You reading this Micheal lol.  I actually bought girly attire…  I gotta say though I do love that angora sweater 😉

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I haven\’t bothered with them in years.  I do however hope that 2010 is a whole lot better then 2009 was!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

not particularly close per say, but a few people I know are proud parents.  However  my best friend of 20+ years is pregnant 🙂

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Yes

5. What countries did you visit?

How about provinces? I went to Ontario as per the usual in the summer and just got back from Christmas there too.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?

peace of mind!

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

September 3rd one of my best friends died and that day changed my life.  RIP Jason, I love you!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Wow that\’s a tough one.  Can\’t really say I actually have one which is kind of sad in a way but this year was full of so. much. fail.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Not being there for someone when they needed me the most.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Well aside from the Advil overdose because of that epic tooth pain I had, the infection that followed which SUCKED not really.  Injury\’s well I hurt myself at work quite a bit but its rather minor in comparison.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

A new computer (thanks mom <3)

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

My sister

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Jason…

14. Where did most of your money go?

Bills, the dentist, visa

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

My tattoos! lol

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?

Can\’t say I have one particular song in mind.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

Although I can\’t totally recall how I felt this time last year I know due to circumstances that I am most certainly sadder, thinner and hands down a whole lot more poor too lol.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Been there more for my friends/family.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

procrastinated, stressed out, getting angry and less crying!  Did far too much of that this year!

20. How did you spend Christmas?

I was in Ontario with my immediate family and it was awesome!  I had a really good Christmas this year in the end.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?

nope.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

Family guy!  Although I haven\’t watched a lot of TV this year and I\’m canceling the cable soon because of it.

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

No.

24. What was the best book you read?

I read so many good ones this year!

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Haven\’t made any of those…

26. What did you want and get?

Tickets to Metallica!  A new computer,  a cat with thumbs, some beautiful tattoo work of course/

27. What did you want and not get?

Jason to be alive.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

Didn\’t see enough movies to even garner a proper response for that one.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 31…  Had a small soiree with my friends at my apartment and it was fabulous!

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

not being in debt and being back in school already!

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?

ha ha this year was a bit of a transformation of sorts.  I\’ve always been a jeans/t-shirt/hoodie girl.  I still am but I have gotten more \”girly\” attire and started wearing heels!  That\’s a little crazy in itself!

32. What kept you sane?

My friends, I honestly don\’t know what I would have done without them this year!  I am so very fortunate to have such amazing people in my life!

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

That\’s not my style, I could care less about that sort of thing.

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

H1N1 Jesus Christ!  All the hype and bullshit holy fuck!

35. Who did you miss?

Jason, my mom

36. Who was the best new person you met?

Define met, I can say who the best new person I\’ve talked to but have yet to meet is.  They already know that though and if they don\’t well they should!

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.

Life is short, too short!

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day\’s a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What\’s worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts \’cause there\’s no second try
So live like you\’re never living twice
Don\’t take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day-Nickleback

So in closing, this year sucked in SO many ways…  Tons and tons of soul sucking drama, far too many tears and heartbreak and things that just speak of pure evil.  Although there were a few rare moments of happiness that made them all that much more precious.  In the end its the little things that matter and that was a lesson that I sadly learned the hard way.
So 2009 wasn\’t a total loss, just a very difficult year.  In the end, I have learned that inspiration can come from the strangest things but leads to something beautiful.  I\’m not going to rattle of names, but I can only hope that those who were there for me either directly or indirectly when I needed them the most, who gave me some very much needed closure in inadvertently assisting me with my memorial tattoo for Jason and those who just made this year suck a little less, your awesome and I am so totally grateful that you were there even if it was only for a brief period of time <3
Here\’s to hoping that 2010 is full of much better things for us all 😉
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Randomness!

Start my new job on Wed, have Friday off and a whole lot of crazy insane shifts to look forward to, YAY!  Went shopping today and got the most adorable red wool jacket EVER and I LOVE it!  Along with some other nifty stuff that I don\’t feel as compelled to mention.

I\’m also pondering a decsion of sorts in regards to someone…  But yet I still can\’t seem to totally make up my mind just yet but I\’m thinking if something doesn\’t happen and soon, that\’s going to be a total deal breaker.   Part of it *isn\’t* \”control-able\” due to schedule conflicts and what not but still after a while the whole \”good things come to those who wait\” tends to loose its luster.  I do give them credit for trying at least!  Yet in the same token to coin a phrase from the song (which adds a touch of irony to the situation for reasons I won\’t disclose) beautiful by the smashing pumpkins:\” And I\’m sure you know me well, as I\’m sure you don\’t.  But you just can\’t tell, who you\’ll love and who you won\’t\” .

Which you know it\’d be nice to even have a minuscule amount of say over who\’ll you\’ll like, never mind love.  Aside from the title, another line  from this song also rings true (for a few different reasons): \”Don\’t let your life wrap up around you, don\’t forget to call whenever. I\’ll be here just waiting for you, I\’ll be under your stars forever.  Neither here nor there, just right beside you.\” Carrying on with the whole sappy factor, I adore this song too: by starlight

So enough of the sappiness from me… If your all wondering what in God\’s name has gotten into me, I really have no idea either!

So moving along in other news, since I\’ve been trying to stay up super late in order to get accustomed to my new shift(s) and in doing so have been trolling the internet for something to amuse me and well needless to say, it hasn\’t dissapointed me!  I really have to give the most credit to MILA (my life is average) and thanks to David who told me about it in the first place.  Because occasionally people will post random websites on there and of course I have to go and check them out because well why not?  Along with MILA …  FML (fuck my life) has some odd bits of humor as well.  Let\’s not forget texts from last night (TFLN) which also has a few gems!

Then I discovered: Cracked (which is full of funny off beat humor), not always right (as in the customer!) hilarious if you ever worked with the public!  Thought I would share that with you all 😉

Random MSN tidbit that I happen to think is funny in regards to a certain recent situation:

Steph: \”I told my mom (left out some details *I DON\’T tell her EVERYTHING but this was just too damn funny NOT too!) and she was laughing so hard she was in tears!\”

C:\”he could have asked for a few tips, since I bet youre quite skilled in bed\”

(Why yes, as a matter of fact I am, thanks! haha)  No in case your wondering, nothing happened and no I didn\’t get any recently.

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Oh man…

Or I should say oh damn!  I\’m not going to elaborate, I flat out refuse to \”divulge\” some details on here.  But let\’s just say if things work out in my favor which needless to say they haven\’t thus far…

I\’M GOING TO HAVE ONE AWESOME WEEKEND!

Which is just as well, seeing as how this might be my last free weekend ever.  But I shall see…  In any case, maybe this is a sign that things are looking up for once?

Stay tuned 😉

PS: CC: I just may have some decent gossip for you ha ha!

*EDIT* Whilst in the middle of a rather awesome dream at 10:30 this morning I was jarred awake by the damn phone!  Once I realized it was Dominic from one of the interviews I had I was a whole lot less pissy so I have a job trial on Sunday morning!  He told me that he tried out 2 people so far, one failed miserably and one was only half good.  I can top that or at the very least attempt to.

So today I have a few \”loose ends\” to tie up with a few people.  Laundry has to get done *ick* hate doing my damn laundry!  The this evening is bound to be good if I get that phone call.  I shall see!

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Why can\’t my life be average?

I mean seriously!   Or maybe it should be more like why can\’t *I* be normal?  Then again define normal:

adjective
1 normal
conforming with or constituting a norm or standard or level or type or social norm; not abnormal; \”serve wine at normal room temperature\”; \”normal diplomatic relations\”; \”normal working hours\”; \”normal word order\”; \”normal curiosity\”; \”the normal course o
2 normal
being approximately average or within certain limits in e.g. intelligence and development; \”a perfectly normal child\”; \”of normal intelligence\”; \”the most normal person I\’ve ever met\”

So that pretty much explains it right there, because I am oh so defiant against social norms…  But still…  Sometimes I wish that I was just an ordinary person living a normal boring ass life.  I however shall never be so fortunate now shall I?

So since its been a while…  I\’ll do some slight back tracking since I know EVERYONE is just SO interested in my life…  Saturday: Shane\’s birthday= awesome!  That\’s all I have to say about that.  Oh yeah I had a job interview on Saturday night, that was pretty random too.  A few odd questions, an ultra fast tour and I need to call him either tonight or Thursday to set up a trail run  to see if I like it or not.  Steph the breakfast Chef *barf* but we\’ll see…  If the price is right I\’ll be MORE then happy to order a bunch of boys around…;)  I also have another job interview on Thursday night at a Bistro, this should be interesting.  So I\’ll wait to call Dominic back after I talk to Jason.

Another random occurrence…  I almost never use MSN messenger for a number of reasons.  Generally because if I happen to be online I\’m busy and I don\’t want to be disrupted by anyone.  I almost always \”appear\” offline and go into what \”C\” refers to as: sneaky stalker ninja mode.  However Dustin sent me a text and asked me to go online so we could gab for a bit which is fine and well until I got some e-mail from guy named Sam something and well curiosity did get the best of me so I had to check it out since anyone who knows me know that I don\’t use that e-mail address for e-mail, just MSN therefore I never check it.  I still have no clue who this guy is, let alone how he ended up on my MSN.  So I\’m thinking its likely a really long time since I\’ve had some association with this guy.  He\’s pretty hot, but REALLY creepy…  Or maybe its just me who thinks its creepy?  I won\’t post said conversation in here, granted its pretty tempting but I shall refrain.  In any case, the 10 mins I had him on my MSN was a HUGE turn off, I mean seriously why are some (not all) guys act like total doucebags if they think someone\’s hot?  I don\’t get it… In any case that was just plain weird…

Another odd occurrence…  Face book status said something to the effect of being a Chef & pretty has its advantages; boys & jobs aren\’t usually hard to come by.  Then out of nowhere I get a message from my ex boyfriend (we\’re talking 16 years ago.  Yeah I\’m old STFU Micheal 😉 )  And this little gem turns up in my in-box( yes this would be one of those pics or it didn\’t happen moments!) lol:

So yeah, today Krystal and I were sitting outside talking about music from our youth (you know back in the dark ages when we had tapes lol)…  Which led to a whole lot of bad rapping/even worse dancing on the back fire escape…  Good times to be had though, it was pretty hilarious!   Such as: Vanilla Ice, Kriss Kross, (x2), House of Pain, Cyprus Hill, MC Hammer (my God those pants…) & of course who can forget ace of base\’s two hit wonder lol.  Moments like these are really going to make me miss my job there!

On a final note, I have PMS and its toying with FAR too many things…  One thing in particular has a terrible hold on me that I can\’t seem to get rid of and its driving me crazy!