Category Archives: WTF!

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So…

Its almost 3am, insomnia seems to have me in its clutches once again.  Today yesterday has been quite the mishmash of emotions today.  I\’m fed up, even so much as talking about my job is enough to make me want to tear out my hair…  You know I also hate when people assume that because I am a Chef I sit on my ass all day and watch the food network or play in my fucking kitchen.  Or when they see my tattoos, I\’m automatically a Harley driving biker chick or a dominatrix WTF?  Could I be any moodier today?  Honestly?  I swear to God if you read the lyrics to Katy Perry\’s hot N cold that pretty much sums up the emotional overload I had in one day.

Sunday, Sunday was to sum it up in one word: AMAZING!  So was Monday in the wee hours of the morning.  Seriously I could gush about that for hours but I won\’t because I have more tact then that.  I needed it, but in the same token it might be my undoing as well…  I\’ll just have to wait and see how that plays out.  In any case it was one of the best days off I\’ve had in a really long time, I wish all my days rocked like that!

I miss Jason, I\’m thinking this whole grief thing is still rearing its ugly head.  7 steps?  Are you kidding me?  Really?  Can we just fast-forward to the part where I\’m even remotely OK coming to terms with Jason being gone? Please.  Yes I got myself a shiny new memorial tattoo and its beautiful and I love it and it has helped me to heal on a number of levels.  However at times like these, I need and want my best friend to be HERE not resting peacefully (or so I hope) wherever his poor tortured soul may be.  Yes its a selfish statement and you know what?  I don\’t care because right now I feel like being a selfish girl!  I feel like I\’m bouncing like a ping pong ball between steps 3 to 6…  You know kind of like beer pong, ping pong can get a tad boring.  I need to talk to him and spill my guts all over the place and have someone not judge me for feeling the way that I do…  That was the beautiful thing about him you know, that guy didn\’t judge, didn\’t assume, was super sweet and was there when I needed him the most.  Except for now, now he\’s gone and today is one of those days where I\’m finding it exceptionally hard to live without him. 🙁  Seriously, I thought I was done with this whole crying thing…  Well apparently not.

I hate my career, HAAAAAAAAAAAAATE it!  Seriously, my job has got me beyond stressed out!  I am past the point of kicking myself in the ass for waiting so damn long to get another degree in a different line of work…  I love cooking, the creative aspect of it, the props you get when people call just to comment on how awesome their meal was, the people I work with, the commentary and the inside jokes that you can only get in a pro kitchen.  Here\’s what I hate in no particular order:

  • The Stress…  OMFG my blood pressure goes through the roof at the mere thought of going into work now.
  • The Drama, HOLY FUCK its worse then a super cheesy network soap opera except it would be called as our stomach turns.
  • The pay, seriously I should have became a porn star…
  • The bullshit, there\’s just SO much of it!
  • The hours, OK Hi I can haz a life? Please?  Oh no not in the culinary world.  NO LIFE FOR YOU!
  • The thing that I hate the most? The person I have become because of it…  That\’s the bottom line right there.  Its making me a very ugly person in a number of ways!

I am however looking forward to Thursday, drunken debauchery at its finest awaits!  That\’s all I have to say about that right now…

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Douchebaggery! Among other things…

OK where can I start?  Really…  Thursday, a totally non douchey day!  I got to chill with the lovely Jen, Clint, Ron & Chantal before racing off to work for a few hours and then had a lovely gab with a very lovely person and her hubby.  So all in all it was a nice enjoyable day with good people & good conversation (thank you I needed that! <3).  Then Friday hit and everything just went to shit after that…  I get into work at 5pm as per the usual, nothing was too crazy but I had a feeling it was going to be \”one of those days\” all the while muttering I love my job…  Mostly to myself.  However sometimes most of the time I do in fact love where I work!  We have such a great team of people, lots of inside jokes, stupid little pranks and a pretty good atmosphere to top it off which is nice!  However culinary life, regardless of the role you partake in, isn\’t for everyone either.

My co-worker seemed at odds but he\’s still new-ish so that was the norm.  It does however get a little frustrating when you have to tell someone the same thing a 100 times.  If there\’s something wrong with you IE: you have a learning disability or something then for the love of God SAY SOMETHING!  Anyway, its about 6:15pm I\’m doing some dishes and general tidying up because Friday nights are usually pretty crazy and I wanted to be ready for the rush.  I happened to glimpse my co-worker sneaking out the door, thinking he was going out for a smoke.  Which irritated me to no end because we were only a little over an hour into service but whatever, gotta get your breaks in when you can right?  Then about 20 minutes roll by and I asked my manager if he could track him down because it was starting to pick up a little bit.  He left…  Didn\’t say a word to anyone, just snuck out the back door and out the alley in the back and went home.  Are you fucking kidding me?!?

Thankfully two people rose to the occasion and came into bail my ass out along with my manager (thanks guys!  I really appreciated that!) and all in all Friday night in spite of loosing a staff member was actually pretty smooth overall.  Didn\’t leave until 5am but it got done without any major mishaps.  So as much as that pissed me off, because that\’s such a white trash, douchy thing to do; in the end it was OK.  So I went home, crawled into my uber amazing bed and slept soundly.  So then Saturday rolls around, poor D had to work to replace my MIA co-worker which had to suck but we got it done.  We were having a good time, Saturday in fact was full of fun, laughter and some really bad commentary.  I had high hopes in spite of working with yet another new guy who had only worked a few shifts.  We were having a great time…  That is until about 9-ish when the whining started.  I have ZERO tolerance for anyone who whines, especially a 19 year old law student…   Asking me for a break when you\’ve only been there for 2 hours, TWO HOURS?!? Are you kidding me?  So whatever I figured he might as well take on now because if it got busy then the chances of him getting one at all were pretty nil.  Still irritating though just the same.

Then the nagging started…  Can I go home? No.  Why not? Because I said so.  and on and on it went.  This kid was really starting to get on my nerves!  Then it got busy, it got to the point where I was SO frustrated I wanted to cry.  It takes a lot to get me to that point…  I was so tired, I just quite simply couldn\’t take it anymore!  I didn\’t know if I was coming or going, my co-worker well there\’s only certain things he knows how to do and I tell ya sneaking out that backdoor was MORE then a little appealing to me.  If you know what I mean.  So I texted my immediate boss to make him aware of the situation and well to air out some frustration while I was at it.  I also mentioned to the owner who was working that night that I needed stronger help on the busiest days.  I mean seriously, we broke a fucking sales record last night!  Strong staff IS required!  What did he do? Shrugged it off and bacially gave me a look that said:\”what do you want me to do about it?\” FUCK THAT!

So I\’m out…  I can\’t do this anymore.  Culinary life has been my life since I started working.  Its whoring up all my time, making me bitter, jaded and so. very. angry.  I am going back to school but I wanted to pare down my Visa bill a little bit first but you know what?  I don\’t think that I can wait any longer…  So in the meantime I am \”exploring\” other avenues outside of my career field that can tide me over until I get my BA, hell even a diploma would suffice at this time.  Which sucks so hard because I love where I work!  The stress, the bullshit and the drama however is enough to make me want to throw myself in front of a bus!  When you walk out of work needing some Valium its time to go…  I\’m going to miss that place though when I go 🙁

On a random note, I really miss Jason!  So much!  I also miss being in school…  Who knew?

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Where there\’s smoke…

Occasionally one would see fire!  I forgot to mention how I due to my own abject stupidity almost burnt my apartment down!  Thankfully it was nothing, no one was hurt and nothing was ruined either.  Melting plastic gives off a ton of acrid smoke.  Totally filled my apartment and the most disturbing thing of all?  My smoke detectors didn\’t go off AT ALL…  SO yeah new batteries are on my to do list…

My schedule has change yet again…  At least this time, my schedule allows me to have a personal life.  I miss going out with my friends and all those good things that come with some form of social interaction!  So I\’ve come to a turning point in my life, once again.  Seems to be happening more and more lately.  One thing is certain, I need to get out of this industry.  I only worked 5 hours today and maybe it was because I was tired.  Only had one day off since we got back to work after the holidays.  In any case its really starting to get under my skin so I\’m calling the school as soon as I can manage and seeing what I can do about getting myself in there that much faster!   On the good side of things, the one person that I couldn\’t stand has been terminated.  She obviously did it to herself, but I can\’t help by have a sense of schadenfreude over the whole situation!  So it means I have to work a little more this week but whatever, more money in my bank account and there ain\’t nothing wrong with that!

Still have to call videotron and cancel my cable, I rarely watch TV anymore so what\’s the point?  Not only that I can download what I want and use windows 7 to watch it on my TV.  Just need to get the proper cables and those aren\’t that hard to come by.  Oh technology, gotta love it!  Someone also \”compromised\” my Visa, so that was canceled and a new one is en route.  What a pain in the ass that is!  I also gotta call my student dentist and see if they haven\’t kicked my ass out of the clinic yet, have to make an appointment with my GP to get my thyroid tested…  Gr so much to do and not enough time to do it!  I\’m just so. damn. tired.  Oh yeah have to do laundry sometime soon too…  Going to be a long ass night at work, I actually don\’t start until 4pm but were having a training session at 1pm so that were all on the same page at work so more time spent there.

I\’m pretty sure I spend more time at work then I do anywhere else these days!  Needless to say I can\’t wait until I get a day off again!  Mostly so I can sleep.  At least on Wed its not so bad…  Maybe I\’ll get my laundry done then.  Maybe lol.  Should have gotten it done today but I really had zero motivation to get out of bed and actually get it done.  Next week won\’t be so bad (I hope) but this week is going to be full of suck I\’m thinking!

I\’ll get there, someway somehow!

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6 drunk guys, an angry Chef and

a baseball bat…

I can only imagine the look on R\’s face when he pulled up in front of the restaurant coming back from a delivery only to find it surrounded by police cruisers…  Needless to say Friday night/Saturday morning was FAR from boring.  We were busy, and by busy I mean not stop total chaos ALL night!  So we decided in the best interest of all of us to close early.  We were running out of food, the fryers had gotten so low on oil that even making an order of fries was complicated.  We had orders flying out the door and for some reason we had a whole lot of drunk people piling in as well.  Which killed me because you can plainly see that were busy and while most people were pretty cool about it, this one emo-tard was being a douche-bag so I made him wait longer for his food on purpose.  Mostly because I could!  Anyway that\’s irrelevant to my \”mishap\” that occurred.

So R had to go on some deliveries because we were totally swamped and we opted to close at 3:30am instead of 4.  So I was asked to watch the computer, and what have you.  No problem!  That is until 6 drunk guys stumbled in the door at 3:35 am…  A large majority of them being black, except for that cute French white guy oh and one girl.  All of them at least half a foot taller if not more so then I and considerably larger then myself.  Yes the whole racial profiling thing has some relevance and I will get to that in a second.  They come up to the counter and after a minute of  hey how are you stuff, they got pretty pissed that I told them due to circumstances beyond our control we had to shift our closing time from 4am to 3:30.  So they were all dissapointed, which was what I expected except for this one guy who wouldn\’t take no for an answer!  He was literally begging me to make him food.  Thankfully C had no more orders working at the time so I stood firm and said no.  I even turned down a walk-in pick up order because we both had enough and wanted to get the hell out of there!

Then this one asshole got exceptionally belligerent and well he just picked the wrong place/date/time to get up my ass!  There was no room left there for anyone else at that point!  All of his friends were like look man she\’s closed let\’s go and he just wouldn\’t leave!  So then he slams his fist down on the counter and says your not listening to me.  So I in turn slammed my fist down on the counter and said no your not fucking listening to me!  So on comes the ultimate screaming match with some random dude…  His friends got smart and left and only that asshole and the one guy trying to contain him were still inside.  He just wouldn\’t get the hint so I went out front to escort them out and possibly punch someone in the face.  All of his friends and a few random customers came in once again and it was getting crowded in there and no one was listening to me.  My co-worker well he was no help what so ever…  So since they wouldn\’t leave I went back behind the counter to grab the baseball bat that we have in the kitchen for some random reason.  That\’s when things got really ugly.

The whole front was total chaos, I was getting ready to start knocking heads off like some people do mailboxes.  So drunk guys buddy gets all up in my face talking shit, saying listen to me over and over again.  WTF there isn\’t anything left to say other then get the fuck outta my restaurant!   My co-worker ended up calling the cops who to my amazement showed up in about 5 minutes and broke the party up.  Turns out because these two girls came in and seeing how it was late I let them stay in there because they were running away from some random dude; drunken ass thought I was refusing to serve him because he was black.  WTF!?!  Are you kidding me?  No I don\’t give a damn what your race/gender/ etc. is if I\’m CLOSED I am NOT serving ANYONE!   So needless to say the cops took care of them, made sure that those of us inside were OK and that was that.  No one at work is going to screw with me now lol.

So yesterday I was only supposed to work from 8-11pm because the other guy I was working with I ended up working for him Friday night but I somehow got sucked into working from 8pm-4am UGH… Anyway G asked me if I knew the guys name so that he could call him and apologize for Friday night.  If ANYONE should be apologized to, its ME.  So what if that one guy orders a lot, I make ALL the damn food that comes outta that place more often then not!  Yeah I get that we need the business (what place doesn\’t?) and all that shit but honestly the personal safety of your staff should come first!  If my own personal safety is threatened in ANY way I will do whatever it takes to protect myself!  Its not as if I was having a bad night and felt the need to get in touch with my inner bad ass.  That really pissed me off!  I spoke to my immediate boss about that and one of the owners.  While I respect their point of view, I don\’t agree with it at all!

Although in spite of all the bullshit, some good things do happen!  The biggest issue I had at work has officially been eliminated 😀 Hooray!  Also good things come in cute packages…  So had Michael not did what he did then I wouldn\’t be enjoying that…  So not only did I get a bitching tattoo, I just might get something awesome outta the deal.  I\’m down with that! 😉  Thanks!