Category Archives: Deep thoughts with Steph

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Justified?

I remember eons ago my sisters old roommate had this very image on their living room wall:

 

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I have a higher education and you know what?

I\’m still fucking poor! 

Granted I\’m going back to school, again. Because my current career just doesn\’t do it for me like it used to and well the earning potential far surpasses what I currently make.  Or at the very least, it\’s supposed to. Even if it doesn\’t, I still get to learn something new. So all is not lost, or at least I can hope!  Originally I had wanted to look into graphic design at Inter-Dec college  until I contacted them and found out the cost of tuition.  16,750.00 Nope that\’s NOT a typo, that really does say sixteen thousand and seven hundred and fifty dollars.  Which is painfully close to how much I make in a year…  So let\’s be real here, who in the fuck can afford that?  Also someone I know went there for their cooking program (well Lasalle specifically but it\’s the same deal/school) and not only paid a small fortune in tuition, but paid an arm/leg/toe for books and so forth.  Her two biggest complaints? That her $500.00 text book was used ONCE in class and their teacher didn\’t seem all that interested in what they were doing.

That concerns me a great deal. 

Small class sizes, a downtown location and a few other things do have some appeal. I also know several people who graduated from that program and are doing quite well for themselves.  However that huge ass price tag, for ONE YEAR of school scares me.  What if i\’m not as fortunate?  There are never any guarantees  that you\’ll go somewhere great and do well.  I know countless people with degree\’s and they\’re doing completely different jobs than the one\’s they\’re educated for.  Myself included.  Mind you, I *do* have a culinary related education aside from others.

Except I want a change this time!  Concordia university does offer the program I want for design but the admission requirements are huge! I\’d get laughed out of admissions I\’m sure 🙂  That\’s OK though, I have artistic talent although it\’s not quite up to par with their standards and that\’s totally OK!  Dawson college also offers it, however you also have to take additional courses  (scroll down to the second page) and it\’s a three year, full time program.  Let\’s be real here, I\’m almost 34 with a full time career already and it\’s just not feasible for me :/  Although it does seem rather interesting and it\’s far more affordable too!

So alas, I might end up at Concordia taking something a little different, yet still interesting to me just the same!

In any case, I really hope it\’s worth it!  I\’ve already spent close to 20 years in a career that I\’ve come close to hating.  It\’s time for a change and one shouldn\’t have to pay out the ass for the privilege either!

 

 

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Brain bleed…

Reality TV. I don\’t get it, I don\’t watch it and I can\’t fathom why it\’s so insanely popular.  The other day, I got sucked into watching the bachelor o.O

Yeah I know right?  

Distasteful.  Also? Somewhat sad.  Pitting 12 women against each other in a so called quest for true love and marriage is like tossing some random body part into a pool of vultures.  Women are catty, competitive and let\’s not forget basic rules of human nature: You always seem to want what you can\’t have.

What floored me is that one woman who got busted for being in love with someone else and came on the show to \’get over the guy that she\’s in love with because he doesn\’t want to get married and she does\’.

Pathetic. 

So basically she\’s putting herself out there on a totally trashy wildly popular show because she\’s desperate to have the wedding of her dreams a husband.  WTF is wrong with you?!?  Same goes for the rest of them.  What\’s the appeal?  I vaguely recall watching a talk show of sorts eons ago when what\’s her name was on the bacholorette and they had two of the rejects on for an interview and they said that they didn\’t get to spend all that much time with her.  So please enlighten me as to how you can fall in love with someone in such a short period of time, let alone someone you have to share with a dozen other people?  Than there\’s the tears.  Good lord, these woman are always seemingly drinking their faces off or crying.  Sometimes both simultaneously.  Are you really that desperate to be in love with someone?  I\’m more inclined to think that they\’re more in love with the idea of being in love with someone, anyone.  Perhaps they should check out Tanya Davis\’s video How To Be Alone.  Get some personal enlightenment.

You\’re welcome.

Also Dave, Bob, Jim or whatever the hell that guys name is?  Crazy!  I\’m sure that they\’re getting paid a butt load of money to be on this show, and to his credit he seems mostly straight up (from the little bit that I watched) which is a good thing.  I\’m not a huge fan of dating overall.  I\’m not particularly good at it and the more I like someone, seems the more awkward I seem to get. Also shy.  Yeah I know, hard to believe but it\’s true.

Doesn\’t help that I have become insanely picky as of late.  Most of the guys I\’ve spoken with, I can\’t be bothered to meet.  Because they\’re total douche-bags who seemingly have a knack for spewing forth drivel that they think I want to hear.  I\’ve only been on a few(4) dates in the past 13 months and only one.  Yes ONE guy I\’ve actually gone out with twice.  I can\’t fathom having to date several men at a time trying to figure out which one I want to marry.  Let alone embarrass myself on national television.  The one thing that is the most challenging about dating? Subtext.  Good lord.  I need a manual, or something.

Just my .65 cents.     

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Random WTF\’s

OK first of all it\’s 9:15 in the morning. Had a long week at work and was actually looking forward to sleeping in. Except of course given the nonsense of my daily schedule as is, that\’s usually an impossible dream. Clearly my neighbors are awake too, because I can hear them a little too clearly. I\’m happy that they have a err rather active sex life in spite of their having two children and another one on the way. Good for them!
You know what\’s NOT good for me?


Having my pictures and what not on the walls end up crooked because to put it bluntly, he\’s fucking her so hard that MY walls are shaking!
I have some of their mail here, I\’m tempted to walk upstairs in my bathrobe and knock on the door.  In any case, I don\’t feel bad when I start singing random songs (off key no less) at the fullest volume I can muster.  😉

In other news, this I find much, much more appalling!  I mean seriously, WTF is wrong with society these days?  We have people protesting the Habs because they have an English speaking coach, yet american players (which isn\’t an issue of course).

Children being denied organ transplants from NON organ donor lists (they have family members who are willing to do so) because she\’s mentally challenged.  OK seriously?  This disgusts me on So. Many. Levels.  Who are you to deny a child the quality of life that all children deserve because you refuse to do the transplant?  Some Dr\’s are fucking arrogant!

Not to mention the conservative government of Canada denying gay marriage rights all of a sudden…  This article is quite an interesting read to say the least.  Dan Savage\’s quote \”Now if you\’ll excuse me I need to go wake up my husband and tell him we got divorced last night.\” is amusing, yet sad at the same time.  I as a person born and raised in Canada was so PROUD that we were forward thinking enough to have this finally be legal.  It was pretty freaking awesome when the province I call home hosted the first gay marriage ceremony.   Now?

Now I am ashamed.  Shame on you Canada for going back on your word and for fucking with the rights of others that you have NO business doing in the first place!  Do you really think that this is going to help you during election time?  Guess again mother fuckers!

I have no burning desire to have kids, I do however work with them everyday and I love them as if they were my own.  So when I happened to stumble upon this article I was disgusted by society as a whole.  Botox?  \’virgin waxing\’? Really?  Are we so caught up on what\’s alleged to be beautiful by societal norms that we don\’t care just how bad we\’re fucking with the minds of CHILDREN?!?  Granted as a 33 year old, I\’m pretty sure that my mom taking me to have my legs waxed might have come in handy because after all, hair stops growing back after a while…

I also remember as a child getting all freaked out over my own body hair (before I had that kind body hair) I mean my arms and legs…  I however said nothing and well I doubt my mom would have taken me to get waxed back then anyway.  Not that I had any clue what that actually was back then.  Now the only thing getting waxed these days is my eyebrows and even that I slack off on horribly more often then not!

On a final note, it\’s nice to know that I\’m not the only one who is plagued by idiots in their life…

PS: It\’s now 9:51am and they\’re still having sex…

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The Naked truth…

I did an interview with a friend for my other pet project NAYOP.  He does freelance journalism and occasionally takes pictures.  Some of them are of moi.  The article has gotten some amazing feedback (thank you all for that!) I thought I would share the behind the scenes view of what it\’s like to do an interview with me. 😉  Dominic is a trooper I have to say!  When he showed up I was in the middle of making some lunch, wearing my jammies, hadn\’t bother to brush my hair (just my teeth) and to hell with make-up!  This was about as naked as naked could get.

Things you would have likely over heard:

\”Steph, what\’s with the sun glasses?\”  \”I don\’t want to bother with make-up, what is this Cosmo?\”

\”Are you seriously not wearing a bra?\” \”I\’m not wearing any panties either, what\’s it to you?  Please, call the crew from what not to wear\”

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And so we talked… Over a plate of my bad ass nachos, which are insanely messy but freaking awesome to chow down on!  While we traded insults back and forth about how much of a slob I appeared to be (It was SUNDAY) and how maybe, just maybe I may have taken the whole thing a little more seriously had the interview been with someone else.  OK maybe not, I might have showered but to hell with the rest.  After all, the article was to be titled the naked truth.

Essentially an article debunking the myths on how not all tattooed people are bad asses (even though I AM, with or without my tattoos ;)) How one person can make a difference and I finally publicly speak out about how I felt to loosing one of my closest friends 2 years after the fact.  It\’s not something I openly speak about and while lately I\’ve been taking up with talking smack about some really bad dates I\’ve had (Oh come on, you all know you LOVE the fodder for le blog!) and political non sense, this is important to me.

And while the behind the scenes portion was fun and full of total non sense, the article itself speaks volumes.  This is why I posed naked and with no make up.  I bared a portion of my soul to the world and I didn\’t feel that it was right to \’cover up\’ any portion of myself either with clothing, make up or props for the photo shoot.  It doesn\’t get any more real then this.

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You can read the whole article here.  Thanks for your support lovelies xoxo