Steph needs (according to google)…

In a lame attempt to lighten things up around here I thought I would amuse myself by actually doing this. Google apparently really does know everything!

The top 10 things that \”steph needs\”

  1. Steph needs a commonplace book. (actually no I would beg to differ as this is someone Else\’s blog but OK) Maybe I\’ll get one for Christmas.
  2. Steph needs to go to the bathroom real bahhd, but she can\’t go alone 🙁 (um hmm OK, this is a youtube video and apparently they can\’t spell). Oh and there\’s a promise of a surprise at the end?  Sadly I didn\’t watch it.
  3. According to Saunders (whomever that would be) Steph NEEDS tough love.  OK Saunders I don\’t know who you are, but lets get something straight, I don\’t *need* tough love, I AM tough to love.
  4. Steph needs someone to comfort her.  Oh really? hmmmmm
  5. According to amazon.com customer discussions Steph needs a new last name.   I actually feel kind of inclined to agree with that statement, as I HATE my last name!
  6. In La Mesa San Diego Steph is a princess in need of a prince.  Is that a tactful way of saying I need a sugar daddy?
  7. Steph needs a new number according to the voice of Celtics fans.  What kind of number are we talking about here?  A new cell phone number, landline number?
  8. Steph needs everyone\’s number ASAP (on facebook apparently).  So get on it people, this could be an emergency situation!
  9. Steph needs our continued prayers!  I do actually, someone should pray for my sorry ass!
  10. Sometimes Steph needs to remember things.  That I do agree with,  I on occasion have a horrible memory.

Notice how that says nothing about how Steph needs more street cred?  Ahem…  That\’s right because I STILL GOT IT! 😉

Suicide prevention & help

In light of loosing my amazing dear friend Jason and Josh to suicide Modology world will soon be creating the Jason Cartwright memorial fund.  In the meantime however, we felt is was necessary to provide a list of resources for anyone who is combating thoughts of suicide, depression and trying to cope with the loss of a loved one.

People you can call for help:
1.800.suicide (784.2433)
Kids help phone: 1.800.668.6868
National suicide prevention lifeline 1-800-273-TALK begin_of_the_skype_highlighting              1-800-273-TALK      end_of_the_skype_highlighting (8255)

Online resources

No one should be ashamed to ask for help!  Thanks to the Kristin Brooks hope center for some of the links!

The National Council for Suicide Prevention. The Council is made up of 12 National Suicide Prevention Organization\’s that are Non-Profit and linked for the purpose of collaboration and advancement of the national strategy.

The Kristin Brooks Hope Center to pilot 1-800-PPDMOMS and the accompanying Peer-to-Peer Network. This program is designed to screen for Postpartum Depression.

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
We have compiled a short bibliography on suicide and surviving that you may find helpful. For more information, or to let us know of a survivor support group in your area which we do not have listed, please contact us at the Foundation.

Welcome to the website of the American Association of Suicidology, a nonprofit organization dedicated to the understanding and prevention of suicide. This site is designed as a resource for anyone concerned about suicide, including AAS members, suicide researchers, therapists, prevention specialists, survivors of suicide, and people who are themselves in crisis.

The entire text of \”How to Heal Depression\” is available to read on the internet for free. Our approach to the treatment of depression is twofold. One is healing the brain, as current medical research points to biochemical imbalances in the brain as the seat of depression. The second is healing the mind-overcoming negative habits of thought and action which may cause, or be caused by, depression.

Change Your Mind. There are many reasons why people do not get help for mental health problems. FEAR, SHAME, and EMBARRASSMENT often prevent individuals and their families from doing anything. Mental health problems are real, and they deserve to be treated. It is not a person\’s fault if he or she has a mental health problem. No one is to blame.

Because of the internal nature of depression and loneliness, thousands of youth who appear to be happy are screaming silently in the deepest emotional pain. What can we do? We can help youth with the Yellow Ribbon Suicide Prevention Program. Teens and youth use this very unique program – they are learning a vital life skill and lives are being saved! Chapters, schools & organizations  throughout the U.S. and in 47 countries use this powerful program. We invite you to join with others and help save lives!

QPR stands for Question, Persuade, and Refer — 3 simple steps that anyone can learn to help save a life from suicide. Just as people trained in CPR and the Heimlich Maneuver help save thousands of lives each year, people trained in QPR learn how to recognize the warning signs of a suicide crisis and how to question, persuade, and refer someone to help. Each year thousands of Americans, like you, are saying \”Yes\” to saving the life of a friend, colleague, family member, or neighbor. QPR can be learned in our Gatekeeper course in as little as one hour.

An international nonprofit organization dedicated to those who suffer post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), those at risk for PTSD, and those who care for traumatized individuals.   Educational materials include videotapes, art & poetry gallery, books and articles for both clinicians and those experiencing PTSD.  Gift From Within\’s founder is Dr. Frank Ochberg, the 2003 recipient of the International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies Lifetime Achievement Award.

This site has information on Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). The site contains information about traumatic injury and links to agencies and organizations with information about coping with emotional injury. It is a simple gateway to four specific sites that offer PTSD information and resources. It includes The National Center for PTSD, The National Center for Victims of Violence, The Dart Foundation for Journalism and Trauma and Gift From Within.

Serves as a centralized forum of information and training for service providers of loved ones and family members after violent death. The Director is Edward K. Rynearson, M.D. Medical Director of the Separation and Loss Services Homicide Support Project at Virginia Mason Medical Center.

Learn what your state is doing about developing a suicide prevention plan (or not doing). This comprehensive list has most of what the states are doing and who to contact in your state.

We work worldwide to provide emotional support, and reduce suicide. We listen to people who are in distress. We don\’t judge them or tell them what to do – we listen.

Focused on campus life, anyone can benefit from the resources listed here.

Sometimes I do nice things

Even though according to some people… Micheal *ahem* I\’m trashing my street cred I don\’t care. I never claimed not to be a nice, good all around decent person because I am. That however doesn\’t mean that I\’m STILL not totally badass (because I am) and I refuse to take shit from anyone. Anyway yesterday was the Beaconsfield pet fair and Reach for the stars rescue was there. Which most people should know is owned and operated by a friend of mine and I stand by her efforts 150%.   So in spite of the fact that I didn\’t go to bed until 4:30am I got up early and dragged my ass off to the west island and was hello kitty for the day.

Yes I dressed up as hello kitty.  Yeah we all know how much hello kitty rules but it was pretty warm yesterday and wearing 2 layers of plush over my jeans and t-shirt was equivalent to wearing my own personal sauna ALL day.  Made lots of little girls exceptionally happy, freaked out a few smaller children, as well as scared a dog.  Posed for lots of pictures, got attacked numerous times by small children who I couldn\’t really see since that mask is almost damn near impossible to see anything in.  I however managed not to step on anyone\’s animals or children and didn\’t kick any puppies.

It was an awesome day for the rescue since most people had dogs whereas we did too but we also had lots of kitties with us that were in dire need of forever homes and thankfully to the generosity of some kind people 7 cats and one dog are now out of foster care which is awesome!  I couldn\’t be more happier for Jackie\’s rescue since she works SO hard to make sure that those animals are taken care of and well loved!  Reach for the stars rescue is the ONLY foster based rescue that provides everything.  From the food, the litter, vet check ups, toys, blankets and the whole 9 yards!

Sooner as opposed to later I\’ll be building their website so that we can make a better effort to get the word out for fund-raising and such.  Which Jackie does a lot of from making her own jam from scratch, dinners, live shows and any other means that she can raise money to help them.  I think she\’s amazing, I have never met someone who gives so selflessly to others.  Most people are against adopting from rescues and various agency\’s because of the adoption fee\’s.  What most people don\’t take into consideration is the amount of money that goes into making sure that they\’re well loved and healthy BEFORE they become your new pet.

So on that note, once my business gets up and running, some proceeds will go to the rescue because I know for a fact that ALL the money she raises is put back into her rescue efforts and doesn\’t keep a cent for herself.  OK I\’m done pimping out the rescue for now 😉

Just goes to show you that those of us who are modified aren\’t bad people!

I also added another section to my links for suicide prevention because not a day goes by that I don\’t miss Jason <3