Monthly Archives: October 2009

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Why can\’t my life be average?

I mean seriously!   Or maybe it should be more like why can\’t *I* be normal?  Then again define normal:

adjective
1 normal
conforming with or constituting a norm or standard or level or type or social norm; not abnormal; \”serve wine at normal room temperature\”; \”normal diplomatic relations\”; \”normal working hours\”; \”normal word order\”; \”normal curiosity\”; \”the normal course o
2 normal
being approximately average or within certain limits in e.g. intelligence and development; \”a perfectly normal child\”; \”of normal intelligence\”; \”the most normal person I\’ve ever met\”

So that pretty much explains it right there, because I am oh so defiant against social norms…  But still…  Sometimes I wish that I was just an ordinary person living a normal boring ass life.  I however shall never be so fortunate now shall I?

So since its been a while…  I\’ll do some slight back tracking since I know EVERYONE is just SO interested in my life…  Saturday: Shane\’s birthday= awesome!  That\’s all I have to say about that.  Oh yeah I had a job interview on Saturday night, that was pretty random too.  A few odd questions, an ultra fast tour and I need to call him either tonight or Thursday to set up a trail run  to see if I like it or not.  Steph the breakfast Chef *barf* but we\’ll see…  If the price is right I\’ll be MORE then happy to order a bunch of boys around…;)  I also have another job interview on Thursday night at a Bistro, this should be interesting.  So I\’ll wait to call Dominic back after I talk to Jason.

Another random occurrence…  I almost never use MSN messenger for a number of reasons.  Generally because if I happen to be online I\’m busy and I don\’t want to be disrupted by anyone.  I almost always \”appear\” offline and go into what \”C\” refers to as: sneaky stalker ninja mode.  However Dustin sent me a text and asked me to go online so we could gab for a bit which is fine and well until I got some e-mail from guy named Sam something and well curiosity did get the best of me so I had to check it out since anyone who knows me know that I don\’t use that e-mail address for e-mail, just MSN therefore I never check it.  I still have no clue who this guy is, let alone how he ended up on my MSN.  So I\’m thinking its likely a really long time since I\’ve had some association with this guy.  He\’s pretty hot, but REALLY creepy…  Or maybe its just me who thinks its creepy?  I won\’t post said conversation in here, granted its pretty tempting but I shall refrain.  In any case, the 10 mins I had him on my MSN was a HUGE turn off, I mean seriously why are some (not all) guys act like total doucebags if they think someone\’s hot?  I don\’t get it… In any case that was just plain weird…

Another odd occurrence…  Face book status said something to the effect of being a Chef & pretty has its advantages; boys & jobs aren\’t usually hard to come by.  Then out of nowhere I get a message from my ex boyfriend (we\’re talking 16 years ago.  Yeah I\’m old STFU Micheal 😉 )  And this little gem turns up in my in-box( yes this would be one of those pics or it didn\’t happen moments!) lol:

So yeah, today Krystal and I were sitting outside talking about music from our youth (you know back in the dark ages when we had tapes lol)…  Which led to a whole lot of bad rapping/even worse dancing on the back fire escape…  Good times to be had though, it was pretty hilarious!   Such as: Vanilla Ice, Kriss Kross, (x2), House of Pain, Cyprus Hill, MC Hammer (my God those pants…) & of course who can forget ace of base\’s two hit wonder lol.  Moments like these are really going to make me miss my job there!

On a final note, I have PMS and its toying with FAR too many things…  One thing in particular has a terrible hold on me that I can\’t seem to get rid of and its driving me crazy!

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Realizations & ramblings…

1.I\’ve come to realize that my last ex:
is troubled, but taught me a lot.  For which I am grateful for, more then he\’ll likely ever know.

2. I\’ve come to realize that when I talk:
it\’s usually a complaint about something, I really need to stop doing that…
3. I\’ve come to realize that I love:
my mother more than anything in the world. <3

4. I\’ve come to realize that my friends:
are people I can\’t live without…my TRUE friends anyway.

5. I\’ve come to realize that I\’ve lost:

Too many things dear to me that I can never have back again.
6. I\’ve come to realize that I hate:
arrogance, ignorance, pride and self involvement.

7. I\’ve come to realize that a marriage is:
far from easy and takes a lot of work & effort on both sides!

8. I\’ve come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking:
too much, not enough or about something that\’s negative and stressing them out far too much.

9. I\’ve come to realize that I\’ll always:
be who I am and that\’s all there is too it.

10. I\’ve come to realize that I have a crush on:
the wrong people more often then not but sometimes I do OK!

11. I\’ve come to realize that the last time I truly cried was:
when Jason died, I\’ve never felt so heartbroken in my entire life then I did at that moment.

12. I\’ve come to realize that my cell phone is:
slightly overused as of late and a piece of crap.

13. I\’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I always go back to sleep for a couple of hours because i\’m in love with my bed when I can.

14. I\’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
think about how it\’s way too late & read to distract myself from overthinking and make myself sleepy.

15. I\’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
too much, finding a job, Micheal tying me up, how on earth I\’m going to pay my bills, my latest failure and how I think too much overall.

16. I\’ve come to realize that tonight I will:
spend time with myself trying to sort my life out yet again and send random text messages 🙂

17. I\’ve come to realize that my school is:
a thing of the past, I\’m done with it and I am actually looking forward to going back.

18. I\’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will have to:
keep looking for a new job and hopefully get some sleep and hang out with Shane & company for his birthday!

In other news, as of October 30th I no longer have a job…  So first thing I did was started looking for another one as soon as I got home!  I won\’t post the details here for professional reasons at this time.  I would very much prefer not to burn any bridges until I leave.

Thank God I have skills!  Everything happens for a reason and hopefully I end up with something better in the end.  I\’m very much looking forward to Shane\’s birthday Saturday!  He\’s a dear friend with the most lovely wife ever and I haven\’t seen him since my own birthday in June so it\’ll be nice to see him!

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Productivity is brilliant!

So my long weekend is coming to a close but I have to say I made the most out of this one for certain!  I took care of a lot of little things that I have been putting off because well I love to procrastinate a little too much sometimes and I\’ve been so damn sick the last little while that i\’ve had 0 motivation as well.

My bathroom is done YAY!  My pictures came in on Saturday so those are framed and ready to go.  Trimmed out my living room window with 1/4 molding to finish off my insulation wall because well that looked hideous, hemmed my living room curtains once and for all, and took care of a million little things around here that I kept telling myself needed to get done and just didn\’t do them so that was nice.  My bedroom however looks like a bomb went off in it so that I shall take care of today and the last few tasks that I simply didn\’t feel like doing yesterday.  Then they\’re done once and for all and hopefully won\’t drive me crazy any longer.

Not the most exciting way to spend a weekend but I\’m finally starting to feel better so no time like the present or so the saying goes…  Then I\’ll finally get around to taking pictures of this place too while I\’m at it lol.  Xavier si being a pain in the ass lately, he\’s SO bad!  Heddy is finally starting to keep him in line though its somewhat amusing to watch the turf war that\’s going on around here!  He however has to stop chewing everything he gets his little teeth on!  One of these days he\’s going to electrocute himself and I don\’t see that being a site that I care to see!

Time to tackle the last of those projects!

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I <3 long weekends!

I also LOVE Akismet!  I highly recommend it to anyone who blogs and gets a ton of spam comments/trackbacks like myself.  Now I don\’t even have to deal with them aside from giving them a cursory glance to make sure that its not a comment from one of my friends.   Same thing with recaptcha software that too has come in pretty handy I have to admit!

So I have Monday off for thanksgiving, which is always nice!  I don\’t bother going home to Cambridge,  Ontario because its really just too damn long (8-12 hours depending on how I get there) and well its quite simply not worth it.  Also the last time my mom asked me if I was coming home and I said no, she said good lol.  Mostly though because I\’m here in Montreal and my sister and her family usually ended up doing whatever with the in-laws.  Maybe this year will be different but in any case  I won\’t be there.  I\’d rather come home at Christmas knowing that I could see my whole family and have more time to visit my friends as well.

Speaking of my friends…  I have to share this random little story.  My good childhood friend Adam used to text me all the time via his work cell phone but then the texting privileges got taken away and then sadly he got laid off.  So anyway he got called back to work and now has a cell phone of his own so he asked for my cell number so he could text me but the messages were never going through to me.  Long story short, he saved my number as 519 area code as opposed to 514 so he was texting someone\’s landline which is hilarious because we call each other fucker and often lol.  I can only imagine what those people were thinking when texts meant for me were going to their home phone ha ha!

On another random side note:  you just can\’t fix stupid also jacked from that thread is this because well, most people should know by now how I feel about stupid people 😉