I like plans, I like knowing that I and I alone hold some semblance of control over *my* life and no one else. So after the most epic meltdown that I think I have ever had which Ian bared the burnt of that via a telephone conversation last night after making the mistake of asking me how my day was lol. So my boss is being a twat and I have officially reached my breaking point! I’ve been talking about going back to school for years now to pursue something else but that takes time and money that I don’t necessarily have. Especially time! Being in the culinary industry is a total time whore! No its not impossible to maintain a job and go to school, I’ve done it. However its so un-predictable it makes time management a tad difficult on occasion.
Enter this beautiful thing that technology permits called e-learning! Lasalle college offers a year long program in multimedia techniques which is online and the tuition fees aren’t outrageously high either so that’s a plus! I have little interest in some aspects of the program, but meh why not? Won’t kill me to learn something new which is somewhat in retrospect to what I was after anyway. I’m also going to be taking a crash course in web design. I have background knowledge in it anyway and seeing as how my code skills could use some work anyway might as well. Jason and I had discussed that prior to his untimely death and well I figure there’s no better time then the present. I put it off for several reasons, one of them being he was my personal coding genius.
I already have a copy of the entire macromedia dreamweaver suite (which is included with said class) and associated programs but maybe I’ll actually learn how to actually use it lol. Because their tutorials well they’re shit… I also lack the patience to sit there and figure it out on my own. nothing like have a grossly over-priced piece of paper to add to my current collection that say YAY I know how to use it! 😉 Originally it was more so for my own personal benefit with Jason’s & company’s joint ventures but I figure since he’s gone now and even though James did agree to come on board (thank God!) it would be to my own personal benefit to actually know 100% how everything works so that I need not rely on anyone/anything else…
So in order to achieve this I have to continue to whore myself out to the industry that I really am growing to despise and don’t exactly enjoy anymore regardless of where I work I now have a goal in mind and that if anything gives me the motivation to tolerate this a little bit longer (I hope!) knowing that in the end something bigger and better will be there at the end. Again I can hope right? So we’ll see what happens, in any case my website will benefit from it in the end (I think).
So I have a job interview tomorrow evening for a sous Chef position which is more *my* deal, and well its more stable since its in an upscale retirement home as opposed to a restaurant environment so if anything its consistent as opposed to being in an alternative culinary environment where your hours are dictated by the amount of customers you have in a day. I need more stability in my life when it comes to my finances because well I have a tattoo habit to support. Also decided that since my knee issue has improved sans surgery I’m going back to the gym. I miss kick boxing, people may say that its violent blah blah blah but really aside from having and I quote ” good old fashioned angry sex to make me feel better” which is always fun, I need an outlet for the reams of anger I seem to be experiencing lately and well I like it. Not only that my sex life is well not even in exsistance :p
So maybe I’ll start shopping for hot pink hello kitty boxing gloves ha ha!