Yeah but its MY labia!

I know, I know I\’m talking about vag again.  This time however its not mine, its someone Else\’s.  While I do maintain a somewhat active role in the \”modification community\” at large, my participation has lessened quite a bit.  Unless of course I am talking about my own work.  After all, it is my blog.  I also try to avoid drama at all costs, but like I said to Mr. A.P. last night:\” I don\’t seek out drama, but I seem to attract quite a bit of it\”.  Which is why I was debating writing this post at all, however seeing as how I choose to comment on Ania\’s mod related blog I guess I somewhat brought some of that drama into my life?  Anyway, it all started with this.  Now I could link endlessly to the pissing contest that has ensued since then, however I honestly can not and will not be bothered.  However I do feel compelled to share my $5.00 on the topic of how much is too much?

In terms of body modification that is.

I misunderstood Russ Foxx\’s quote \” But most doctors won\’t perform these types of procedures, said Russ Foxx, a body-modification specialist in Vancouver. \”That leaves us in a predicament. Who do I go to?\” he said.  Foxx said he learns how to perform procedures from talking to veteran practitioners, reading books and traveling to conventions.\”  Whereas I commented on Ania\’s blog that I call bullshit because most plastic surgeons will in fact perform cosmetic surgery on one\’s vag.  Ear pointing, tongue splitting (and so on) not so much.  I get that, as in the whole where do I go? Because like most of the educated modified people I know personally do an insane amount of research before progressing with anything regardless of whether or not its deemed \”experimental\” , high risk or whatever or not.  If you are modified, then you can understand/comprehend and relate to this.  Essentially, its what makes US happy at the end of the day.  We do it because we want to, for a number of reasons.  The bottom line is this: If you want something/anything bad enough you will seek it out actively until you get.  Some of us will spare no expense or take ridiculous risks and some of us will take the time to seek out a trusting, educated individual to preform the work we seek.  Tattoos, piercings, scars whatever.

However there is also a lot of stupid people out there as well.  I can\’t help but agree with Steve Peace to a degree when he said:\” Where do you stop?  I\’m a tattoo artist, not a Dr.\” OK fine, I\’ll give you that.  If it bothers you that much, then by all means stick with tattooing then.  I also agree that there IS in fact a lot of people who claim to know what the hell they\’re doing (they don\’t) and I for one know of a few people who really don\’t have the training or the skills to be pulling off a lot of what they do.  Yes a labia reduction, ear pointing, tongue splitting to name a few do fall under the surgical category.  Most modification artists aren\’t Dr.\’s of any shape or form, however its not as if she went in for breast implants either.  OK slightly contradictory yes, however regardless of whether its a Dr, your best friend, your tattoo artist or some dirt-bag in a back alley doing your stuff the risk factor is always there.  How high that risk factor is really depends on what your getting done and how controlled the environment that your in is as well.  Not to mention the cost factor as well.  I was told by her that she was quoted 4 grand by a surgeon, that\’s a lot of coin to make your vag look nice to your satisfaction.  Some people are willing to spend that kind of money, others not so much.  Some people can\’t simply find someone they trust enough that\’s a professional surgeon to do the work or whatever the reasons are.  Wether you are getting plastic surgery or a tattoo, you\’re altering the way your body looks forever.

I happen to know of said person in question.  I\’ve never met her personally, however I am quite familiar with and totally support her shop.  I\’m from Ontario and spent a lot of time in Guelph so maybe my loyalty stems from that.  In any case  I am however also a woman & I can totally relate to looking at certain body parts and loathing their overall appearance in general.  I personally tattoo them.  I was dead against getting my sleeves started until my arms were more toned.  Then I said fuck it, now I\’m sporting some awesome in progress sleeves.  Why?  Because to me its taking something you deem \”ugly\” and turning it into something beautiful.  I also have my pubic mound tattooed, not entirely for the same reasons mind you, but I get it.

Now for ME personally, I don\’t have the proverbial balls do get my vag that modified as in a surgical manner.  Christ I had a hard enough time  getting my VCH done!  Never mind someone toying with my bits with a scalpel (I am shuddering inwardly, as is my vag).  However, this individual had the guts, the research, not to mention a trusted individual on hand to go through with getting it done.  I can admire that and you know I am rather curious about the whole procedure as whole just because I\’m a curious person.

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And i\’m

rocking the quickies lately it would seem.

Still working. A. Lot.  As in too fucking much.

I did however have the most epic night last night ever. I do mean EVER.  I was beyond starved for human interaction that didn\’t involve my lovely co-workers and/or children.  Oh speaking of children…  NEGATIVE HOORAY!

Not only that but real food that I actually went to the effort to make because I felt like it & other stuff (Thanks for the awesome goodies Maximus!).  Mostly, I just wanted to see him & his naked ass in my bed his adorable smiling face.  He\’s amazing and just what I wanted needed after such an insane two weeks of the non-stop-work-a-thon.   I also needed some serious self indulgence and I decided to share and it was wonderful extrodinary MIND. BLOWING.  and I\’m still smiling <3

The sleep deprivation?  Totally worth it!  Even though I felt like today was never going to end (it did end late oops).

I\’d like to know where on earth my glasses are!  10 days my ass!  That nausea?  Stress & migraines due to my awesome inability to not see properly and working too damn much.  I finally get a break on Saturday YAY! 🙂  Going to my favorite museum ever & I\’m SO excited!

Life\’s been pretty crazy, however totally worth it!  Got a tattoo appointment on the 3rd & the 10th!  Things are good, I\’m quite content.  I\’m actually not waiting for the bottom to fall out of it for a change.  Who knew?

What can I say?  All the BS is finally paying off and you know what?  I\’m enjoying it immensely! Which brings me to this song (in regards to past, not current things):

I took a drive today
Time to emancipate
I guess it was the beatings made me wise
But I\’m not about to give thanks or apologize
I couldn\’t breathe holdin\’ me down
Hand on my face kissin\’ the ground
Enmity gauged united by fear
\’Posed to endure what I could not forgive…

I seem to look away
Wounds in the mirror waved
It wasn\’t my surface most defiled
Head at your feet fool to your crown
Fist on my plate, swallowed it down
Enmity gauged, united by fear
Tried to endure what I could not forgive

Saw things
Clearer
Once you, were in my…Rearview mirror…

I gather speed from you fucking with me
Once and for all I\’m far away
I hardly believe, finally the shades…are raised…hey…

Saw things so much clearer
Once you, once you…
Rearview mirror

Saw things so much clearer
Once you…oh yeah…

The train wreck saga continues…

OK so no I have no real reason to complain (kinda), I could be in Haiti right now.  Not to be totally ungrateful because you know, for the most part I have it pretty damn good.  At least in some regards…  There is one \”situation\” (for lack of a better term) that I have 0 intentions of complaining about because well its awesome extraordinary ;).  However on the not so awesome side of things…  Work (do I talk about anything else?) yeah got my schedule yesterday and I have a whole two shifts.  TWO!  WTF?  Max is on vacation and aside from Darren *I* have the most seniority hello!  So I have five freaking days off of work, not so awesome when your not expecting them, and when you had four days off the previous week as well.  SCREW YOU READING WEEK!  Hopefully I get a call back from the daycare I applied to on Tuesday.  Yeah me, working a daycare.  That\’s beyond hilarious!  I will however be the executive Chef, in charge of snacks and meals for 80 birth control failures adorable little children.  Don\’t get me wrong, I don\’t hate kids.  I love anyone Else\’s children.  Its also quite similar to the work I did at Concordia so its not like its foreign to me.  Oh and to top it off, I forgot to top up my damn phone and lost the killer plan I had grandfathered in.  Shit!  So yeah no text messages from me today, must call virgin and make sure I get my text pack back. Done!

We shall see what happens though in the meantime.  In any case I can\’t afford this, so I\’m thinking prostitution,perhaps looking for a new job.  Mostly I want to go back to school, badly.  Yeah I know, WTF is wrong with me?  Ask my mom how many schools I got kicked out of (Hi Mom, I love you!) *yes, my mommy reads my blog*. However being an adult changes everything.  Age to me isn\’t relevant.  Age really is just the numerical definition of how many years you\’ve been on this earth, it does not denote how many years you\’ve lived.  Physically I\’m 31, can pass for 24 on a good day but I\’m old on the inside.

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The wow factor & other misc junk

Funny thing about me, I\’m pretty bold 95% of the time.  Usually inappropriate, blunt, straightforward, too honest and you know all that stuff.  That other 5%, I\’m shy, yes I said it!  Pick your damn jaw off the floor kids because its true.  Do you really think I was always this way?  No.  I can actually credit being a Chef to me being the way that I am.  Because when you work in an industry ruled by testosterone you pretty much have to grow your own pair and fight the fight of your life.  There is no one who\’s going to stick up for you if your not willing to stick up for yourself.  So most of the time I can hide it and I do it quite well.  However being a Chef has its downfalls…  You tend to become bitter & jaded (or maybe that\’s just me?) and a million other things.  Maybe it just feels that way? Hence the reason I\’m getting out, which couldn\’t come sooner if you ask me but now sadly is not the time.  Need to get settled into a new job first and once again pay off that evil Visa bill of mine.  I however have goals and they will be accomplished somehow….

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