Category Archives: Dating

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Ohhh FFS!

I\’m still sick, not nearly as bad as I was on Monday or Tuesday mind you.  However I still sound like a combination of Darth Vader and a coffee maker gone horribly wrong.  This is what I get for doing the things I do.  I was Mostly OK on Sunday.  Well OK enough to see him after I pumped myself full of drugs, took a bath and almost killed both my cats in the process.  In spite of the fact that I felt like (and still do feel like) a bloated  cow…  I\’m also feeling tres barftastique!  For real…  I had to get blood work done on Sunday, that is always fun.  Maybe then I\’ll discover what the hell is wrong with me. I can nap on demand and my body aches all. the. damn. time.

I also feel compelled to point out this: \”Love may be blind, however I am not in love. I also have glasses that didn\’t come with the rose colored tint, so I can also see ;)\”  Although Jen had a valid point with this: \”if love blind pluck it out and see not with rose colored glass but look into the soul and u will see clearly if your attended is worthy of your love\”

Why do you ask?

Because I refer to him as Mr. Almost Perfect.  As in almost perfect FOR me.  I like him, we get on well.  However like I said to him the other day, the stars got knocked out of my eyes a LONG time ago.  I am not infatuated with him, nor am I in love with him.  I do however enjoy his company immensely.  Its new & I\’m not looking too far ahead.  Right now I\’m just enjoying the moments as they come.  Besides no one truly knows our situation except for us.  So needless to say I got rather annoyed flat out irritated when one of my friends felt the need to point out that no one is perfect, let alone almost perfect.  On my facebook wall no less.  She felt that I \”needed a reminder\”.  Um hmm.  OK how about you stay outta my personal life and drop dead. mind your own business?  What am I some starry eyed 15 year old?  No I happen to be on the edge of being *cough 32 cough* I see no need for any sort of alarm or concern.  Either of which is horribly misplaced.  I know what I\’ve been through, last time I recall I was there.  I am not a naive fool thanks.  If you feel the need to comment on anything I do in my life, then fucking well message me privately.  Even my mom & her mom both said that I wasn\’t in need of a reality check.  Thanks though, however if I wanted your opinion; I would gladly give it to you.

For real.

Apparently that pissed me off more then I thought it did. Who knew?  Which is why I deleted that post & the argument/comments that followed.  It was getting a tad ridiculous!

In other news…

I\’ve been corresponding quite a bit with Jason\’s mom.  Who\’s been nothing short of wonderful!  She wants to bring Jason\’s ashes to Canada.  He always wanted to come & I believe it was last 2 summer\’s ago  that he almost made it here too.  Well to Toronto for BME fest.  I was mighty pissed that I wasn\’t going to be able to meet him, except he wasn\’t able to cross the border due to a lack of a passport.  So the poor guy got stuck in Buffalo NY.  So of course pending she decides to bring him here (which I\’m assuming she will) I\’ll get to \”meet him\” in retrospect, however that wasn\’t what I had in mind…  However I think it will be nice to have a memorial service and scatter his ashes with his mom and whomever else chooses to be in attendance that day.  Yeah I know that\’s technically not legal but hey, why not?

So out of curiosity I checked out the price of airline tickets on Expedia.  Carlsbad has an airport and so does Montreal, so that made searching easy.  The cost blew. my. fucking. mind.  Almost $1300.00 yes that would be thirteen hundred freaking dollars for a round trip ticket!  Yet for about the same price I could go to you know Cuba and stay in a 5 star all inclusive resort for a week.  W.T.F.!?!  I wonder how long it would take to drive there… One day and 12 hours according to Google maps (of course I had to check you know). Not that I would do such a thing but you know what I mean?  I think Jason was taking the bus across the border into Niagara Falls and grabbing a flight from there to Toronto.  Can\’t recall now, obviously it doesn\’t matter that much.

Something to ponder anyway.

On a final note, I really want a cupcake!

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The wow factor & other misc junk

Funny thing about me, I\’m pretty bold 95% of the time.  Usually inappropriate, blunt, straightforward, too honest and you know all that stuff.  That other 5%, I\’m shy, yes I said it!  Pick your damn jaw off the floor kids because its true.  Do you really think I was always this way?  No.  I can actually credit being a Chef to me being the way that I am.  Because when you work in an industry ruled by testosterone you pretty much have to grow your own pair and fight the fight of your life.  There is no one who\’s going to stick up for you if your not willing to stick up for yourself.  So most of the time I can hide it and I do it quite well.  However being a Chef has its downfalls…  You tend to become bitter & jaded (or maybe that\’s just me?) and a million other things.  Maybe it just feels that way? Hence the reason I\’m getting out, which couldn\’t come sooner if you ask me but now sadly is not the time.  Need to get settled into a new job first and once again pay off that evil Visa bill of mine.  I however have goals and they will be accomplished somehow….

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Holy F**K psycho alert! Consider this a PSA

OK so if anyone really knows me, I blog about a ton of stuff but rarely do I talk about my personal life…  However sometimes, you need to do the world a favor and essentially provide them with a PSA (public service announcement).  Yes I know what I am about to say/do is flat out wrong but you know what?  Men are really starting to piss me off these days and this guy really managed to get my panties in the biggest freaking knot EVER!  Of all the \”dates\” I\’ve been on lately, there\’s only one that stands out in my mind as actually being good, I mean great, screw that fabulous.  So thank you \”V\” for at least convincing me that not every guy is a psychopathic douche-bag!  At least some people, OK one person didn\’t leave a bad impression.  Wish I could say that for the others but man, this guy really took the cake and blew me away!  Yes I know I should have walked away and left well enough alone but you know what, yeah this time I just can\’t seem to let it go.  Once I get sucked into an argument, no matter how petty I WILL have the last word dammit and I did!

We started chatting briefly on one of those rare occasions I was on MSN…  I\’m rarely on there, I just don\’t have the time.  I thought he was too much of a pretty boy for my own personal tastes but hey, who am I to judge right?  So anyway warning bells started coming forth but not the screaming siren sort.   Mostly based on what he said, but I thought meh what\’s the harm in going to meet him right?  So we made plans to go to a cafe beside his work on Notre Dame I\’m thinking its this one Has a PHD in engineering (take notes kids!).  Bear in mind that I totally gave up everything I was planning on doing to go meet this guy for a date.  He\’s leaving for New York for a conference (hope his plane crashes) in the afternoon and was going to be gone for a few days and since I have a few days off of work, why waste them?

Anyway, got a call from a friend who needed some help with her computer.  So I told her that I was on my way to this date with Eric and I would be a while.  Meaning I would be there within the hour if things didn\’t work out or a few hours if they did.  So as I am about to walk in there, he texts me back telling me not to come.  I was like WTF I\’m there and your pulling this shit on me?  So here\’s a transcript of our text message conversation, then you can tell me what you think about the whole thing. Love my cell phone for this!  This is also why I don\’t give anyone my land line number!  Very few people actually have it & there\’s a reason for that!

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6 drunk guys, an angry Chef and

a baseball bat…

I can only imagine the look on R\’s face when he pulled up in front of the restaurant coming back from a delivery only to find it surrounded by police cruisers…  Needless to say Friday night/Saturday morning was FAR from boring.  We were busy, and by busy I mean not stop total chaos ALL night!  So we decided in the best interest of all of us to close early.  We were running out of food, the fryers had gotten so low on oil that even making an order of fries was complicated.  We had orders flying out the door and for some reason we had a whole lot of drunk people piling in as well.  Which killed me because you can plainly see that were busy and while most people were pretty cool about it, this one emo-tard was being a douche-bag so I made him wait longer for his food on purpose.  Mostly because I could!  Anyway that\’s irrelevant to my \”mishap\” that occurred.

So R had to go on some deliveries because we were totally swamped and we opted to close at 3:30am instead of 4.  So I was asked to watch the computer, and what have you.  No problem!  That is until 6 drunk guys stumbled in the door at 3:35 am…  A large majority of them being black, except for that cute French white guy oh and one girl.  All of them at least half a foot taller if not more so then I and considerably larger then myself.  Yes the whole racial profiling thing has some relevance and I will get to that in a second.  They come up to the counter and after a minute of  hey how are you stuff, they got pretty pissed that I told them due to circumstances beyond our control we had to shift our closing time from 4am to 3:30.  So they were all dissapointed, which was what I expected except for this one guy who wouldn\’t take no for an answer!  He was literally begging me to make him food.  Thankfully C had no more orders working at the time so I stood firm and said no.  I even turned down a walk-in pick up order because we both had enough and wanted to get the hell out of there!

Then this one asshole got exceptionally belligerent and well he just picked the wrong place/date/time to get up my ass!  There was no room left there for anyone else at that point!  All of his friends were like look man she\’s closed let\’s go and he just wouldn\’t leave!  So then he slams his fist down on the counter and says your not listening to me.  So I in turn slammed my fist down on the counter and said no your not fucking listening to me!  So on comes the ultimate screaming match with some random dude…  His friends got smart and left and only that asshole and the one guy trying to contain him were still inside.  He just wouldn\’t get the hint so I went out front to escort them out and possibly punch someone in the face.  All of his friends and a few random customers came in once again and it was getting crowded in there and no one was listening to me.  My co-worker well he was no help what so ever…  So since they wouldn\’t leave I went back behind the counter to grab the baseball bat that we have in the kitchen for some random reason.  That\’s when things got really ugly.

The whole front was total chaos, I was getting ready to start knocking heads off like some people do mailboxes.  So drunk guys buddy gets all up in my face talking shit, saying listen to me over and over again.  WTF there isn\’t anything left to say other then get the fuck outta my restaurant!   My co-worker ended up calling the cops who to my amazement showed up in about 5 minutes and broke the party up.  Turns out because these two girls came in and seeing how it was late I let them stay in there because they were running away from some random dude; drunken ass thought I was refusing to serve him because he was black.  WTF!?!  Are you kidding me?  No I don\’t give a damn what your race/gender/ etc. is if I\’m CLOSED I am NOT serving ANYONE!   So needless to say the cops took care of them, made sure that those of us inside were OK and that was that.  No one at work is going to screw with me now lol.

So yesterday I was only supposed to work from 8-11pm because the other guy I was working with I ended up working for him Friday night but I somehow got sucked into working from 8pm-4am UGH… Anyway G asked me if I knew the guys name so that he could call him and apologize for Friday night.  If ANYONE should be apologized to, its ME.  So what if that one guy orders a lot, I make ALL the damn food that comes outta that place more often then not!  Yeah I get that we need the business (what place doesn\’t?) and all that shit but honestly the personal safety of your staff should come first!  If my own personal safety is threatened in ANY way I will do whatever it takes to protect myself!  Its not as if I was having a bad night and felt the need to get in touch with my inner bad ass.  That really pissed me off!  I spoke to my immediate boss about that and one of the owners.  While I respect their point of view, I don\’t agree with it at all!

Although in spite of all the bullshit, some good things do happen!  The biggest issue I had at work has officially been eliminated 😀 Hooray!  Also good things come in cute packages…  So had Michael not did what he did then I wouldn\’t be enjoying that…  So not only did I get a bitching tattoo, I just might get something awesome outta the deal.  I\’m down with that! 😉  Thanks!