Category Archives: Life as I know it

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Oh man…

Or I should say oh damn!  I\’m not going to elaborate, I flat out refuse to \”divulge\” some details on here.  But let\’s just say if things work out in my favor which needless to say they haven\’t thus far…

I\’M GOING TO HAVE ONE AWESOME WEEKEND!

Which is just as well, seeing as how this might be my last free weekend ever.  But I shall see…  In any case, maybe this is a sign that things are looking up for once?

Stay tuned 😉

PS: CC: I just may have some decent gossip for you ha ha!

*EDIT* Whilst in the middle of a rather awesome dream at 10:30 this morning I was jarred awake by the damn phone!  Once I realized it was Dominic from one of the interviews I had I was a whole lot less pissy so I have a job trial on Sunday morning!  He told me that he tried out 2 people so far, one failed miserably and one was only half good.  I can top that or at the very least attempt to.

So today I have a few \”loose ends\” to tie up with a few people.  Laundry has to get done *ick* hate doing my damn laundry!  The this evening is bound to be good if I get that phone call.  I shall see!

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Productivity is brilliant!

So my long weekend is coming to a close but I have to say I made the most out of this one for certain!  I took care of a lot of little things that I have been putting off because well I love to procrastinate a little too much sometimes and I\’ve been so damn sick the last little while that i\’ve had 0 motivation as well.

My bathroom is done YAY!  My pictures came in on Saturday so those are framed and ready to go.  Trimmed out my living room window with 1/4 molding to finish off my insulation wall because well that looked hideous, hemmed my living room curtains once and for all, and took care of a million little things around here that I kept telling myself needed to get done and just didn\’t do them so that was nice.  My bedroom however looks like a bomb went off in it so that I shall take care of today and the last few tasks that I simply didn\’t feel like doing yesterday.  Then they\’re done once and for all and hopefully won\’t drive me crazy any longer.

Not the most exciting way to spend a weekend but I\’m finally starting to feel better so no time like the present or so the saying goes…  Then I\’ll finally get around to taking pictures of this place too while I\’m at it lol.  Xavier si being a pain in the ass lately, he\’s SO bad!  Heddy is finally starting to keep him in line though its somewhat amusing to watch the turf war that\’s going on around here!  He however has to stop chewing everything he gets his little teeth on!  One of these days he\’s going to electrocute himself and I don\’t see that being a site that I care to see!

Time to tackle the last of those projects!

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I have a plan…

I like plans, I like knowing that I and I alone hold some semblance of control over *my* life and no one else.  So after the most epic meltdown that I think I have ever had which Ian bared the burnt of that via  a telephone conversation last night after making the mistake of asking me how my day was lol.  So my boss is being a twat and I have officially reached my breaking point!  I\’ve been talking about going back to school for years now to pursue something else but that takes time and money that I don\’t necessarily have.  Especially time!  Being in the culinary industry is a total time whore!  No its not impossible to maintain a job and go to school, I\’ve done it.  However its so un-predictable it makes time management a tad difficult on occasion.

Enter this beautiful thing that technology permits called e-learning!  Lasalle college offers a year long program in multimedia techniques which is online and the tuition fees aren\’t outrageously high either so that\’s a plus!  I have little interest in some aspects of the program, but meh why not?  Won\’t kill me to learn something new which is somewhat in retrospect to what I was after anyway.  I\’m also going to be taking a crash course in web design.  I have background knowledge  in it anyway and seeing as how my code skills could use some work anyway might as well.  Jason and I had discussed that prior to his untimely death and well I figure there\’s no better time then the present.  I put it off for several reasons, one of them being he was my personal coding genius.

I already have a copy of the entire macromedia dreamweaver suite (which is included with said class) and associated programs but maybe I\’ll actually learn how to actually use it lol.  Because their tutorials well they\’re shit…  I also lack the patience to sit there and figure it out on my own.  nothing like have a grossly over-priced piece of paper to add to my current collection that say YAY I know how to use it! 😉  Originally it was more so for my own personal benefit with Jason\’s & company\’s joint ventures but I figure since he\’s gone now and even though James did agree to come on board (thank God!) it would be to my own personal benefit to actually know 100% how everything works so that I need not rely on anyone/anything else…

So in order to achieve this I have to continue to whore myself out to the industry that I really am growing to despise and don\’t exactly enjoy anymore regardless of where I work I now have a goal in mind and that if anything gives me the motivation to tolerate this a little bit longer (I hope!) knowing that in the end something bigger and better will be there at the end.  Again I can hope right?  So we\’ll see what happens, in any case my website will benefit from it in the end (I think).

So I have a job interview tomorrow evening for a sous Chef position which is more *my* deal, and well its more stable since its in an upscale retirement home as opposed to a restaurant environment so if anything its consistent as opposed to being in an alternative culinary environment where your hours are dictated by the amount of customers you have in a day.   I need more stability in my life when it comes to my finances because well I have a tattoo habit to support.  Also decided that since my knee issue has improved sans surgery I\’m going back to the gym.  I miss kick boxing, people may say that its violent blah blah blah but really aside from having and I quote \” good old fashioned angry sex to make me feel better\” which is always fun, I need an outlet for the reams of anger I seem to be experiencing lately and well I like it.   Not only that my sex life is well not even in exsistance :p

So maybe I\’ll start shopping for hot pink hello kitty boxing gloves ha ha!

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And i\’m done…

Its official, I HAVE reached my breaking point as of right now!  I mean seriously, I just want to curl up into the fetal position in a padded room and scream!  I\’ve been saying for years now that I need HAVE to not be a Chef anymore…  After today the more I think about it, the more it needs to happen.  My boss has some serious issues with communication, I mean really.  Its one thing to rag on me for something I DIDN\’T do or have the audacity to say to me I told you that earlier when in fact it WAS my co-worker, NOT her in a snotty ass bitchy tone.  That, I can\’t handle that!  There\’s no damn way I can take her, this industry and the reams of BS that come with it!

I\’m pretty sure that I\’m going to unjustly get fired from my job because my boss refuses to acknowledge when she\’s wrong or when she\’s convinced in *her* mind that I didn\’t do something or her new favorite pastime, writing me up for something that she told me ONE time to do and I forgot or it wasn\’t done when SHE wanted it done without taking into consideration what I need to get done in the morning with only ONE hour to get it done.  So yes please pile more work onto my ass because you assume that I don\’t manage my time properly or something…

No I\’m not perfect and contrary to her belief, I AM mature enough, responsible enough to in fact take responsibility for my OWN ACTIONS!  She however can\’t…  Tells ME that *I* don\’t communicate enough but when anyone attempts to, she doesn\’t fucking listen and argues with you to the point that you want to stab yourself in the face due to extreme frustration!  I don\’t give a damn if your the one who signs my cheques, if you don\’t provide me with the necessary tools to do my job I can\’t make it happen!  I am not a mind reader either, I posses numerous gifts but that\’s NOT one of them!

That being said I applied for a bunch of jobs yesterday…  Got a few phone calls back today but there\’s only one that interests me at the moment.  One of them didn\’t even bother to leave me a voicemail, oh well c\’est la vie…  I\’ll see what happens, because I need to get out of this industry right now.