I dream about him, this is driving me crazy.  Its one thing to consume my thoughts from time to time but when they invade my dreams, its almost disturbing to me on a certain level.  I had one the other night, that he was on the phone and somehow I missed it and I tried to call him back and he wasn\’t there.  I woke up, and I was upset.  I shouldn\’t be but I was.

Why is it that things that appear to good to be true usually are?  Totally pessimistic I know, but still.

You know what irritates the hell out of me?  People who undermine me!  Happened at work today, when I\’m working with one of the newer staff members I tend to hang back just a little.  Mostly because they need to man the fuck up and learn.  I was not a happy girl today for a number of reasons.  Most of them stress related but still…  He comes on the line, sits there and munches away on an apple (with a full board) while I get my ass kicked.  Oh then to top it off, I\’m looking at my schedule for the week @ COC (no days off for a possible 3 weeks straight, holy fuck!).  The he walks up to me and says:\”What time are you done at? Now. Oh well can you do some dishes before you leave? Excuse me? \”  OK first of all: I. wear. the. pants. in. the. kitchen. NOT you.  Nor do you have the right to ask me to stay later on the clock, Christ even I don\’t have that privilege of doing that.  Nor do you have the right to complain either!  Take some fucking initiative and make it happen.  Just because your accustomed to having it done upon arrival does not give you the God given right to expect it to be like that all the time.  Besides its reading week aka spring break and yes this was the busiest night we\’ve had in oh I dunno 12 days but still not nearly as insane as it usually is.

Seriously, these boys know NOTHING about problem solving!  They freak out when there\’s not enough prep, yet God forbid they get off their ass and do some.  Freeman left me a note about prep.  Good stuff, at least he listened to me when I mentioned that.  However Jerk sauce isn\’t part of my duties.  Why?  Because we buy it pre-made you fool!  They don\’t know where everything is, they have no idea how to prep next to nothing and all this other shit.  Seriously?  They\’re killing me, really.  Although in a rather ego driven moment, I am pretty thrilled about one of my creations hitting the new menu!  We changed it in the new year, however we\’re eliminating quite a few items that just aren\’t cutting it.  Although some things are semi OK sellers yet they\’re yanking them off the menu regardless.  Ah well its not my judgment call.  Just seems frivolous to me that they spent all this money on the new menu design & printing now and they\’re changing it.  Not that it matters, seems to me that 96.3% of the people who order from us don\’t read the details anyway.  As in you know when we open.  Idiots.

So no days off from either job, yeah the money is nice and until my background checks either in or out I very much prefer to hold onto my night job until my temporary contract is up with the daycare (as in my 30 day trial period to see if I make the final cut or not).  Can\’t wait to see how bitchy I get in the up-coming weeks ha ha.  Damn bills, URGH!

Travis is being extra nice to me lately…  Kinda strange because we don\’t really talk that much at work.  Sometimes we do, but more often then not we don\’t.  In any case, some of his gestures were really sweet! 🙂  Even though I suspect he has an ulterior motive…  Meh whatever.

Sean totally made me have an Awe moment.  Those are quite rare, I however blame hormones.

I just about damn near had a stroke today when someone at work said OMG Steph are you pregnant?  Granted I could see why they would make such a comment because I normally don\’t do that sort of thing at work.  Spazzing out is normal for me, other things, not so much.  Also our bathroom smelled like someone had died in there when I was in there this morning.  Slightly disturbing since I was the first to arrive & it was like that when I got there.

Oh yeah, changing the fryer oil is sooooooo nasty.  At least with the one fryer, I literally had to stick my hand in there to clear away the tender crumbs that were forming walls around the elements to find the drain.  I was literally up to my elbows in fryer oil and sludge.  Of course, one of our bio-oil containers is filled with a bunch of shit.  Such as paint cans, branches and other misc stuff.  Yeah I know it looks like one of the garbage cans in the alley but its not.  I think we should just toss it(the crap that\’s in there) in the alley and forget about it.  The one container we have is over-flowing as it is (oops, that was my bad) and that\’s so irritating because they never empty the whole damn thing!

URRRRRRRRRGH!