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Oh man…

Or I should say oh damn!  I\’m not going to elaborate, I flat out refuse to \”divulge\” some details on here.  But let\’s just say if things work out in my favor which needless to say they haven\’t thus far…

I\’M GOING TO HAVE ONE AWESOME WEEKEND!

Which is just as well, seeing as how this might be my last free weekend ever.  But I shall see…  In any case, maybe this is a sign that things are looking up for once?

Stay tuned 😉

PS: CC: I just may have some decent gossip for you ha ha!

*EDIT* Whilst in the middle of a rather awesome dream at 10:30 this morning I was jarred awake by the damn phone!  Once I realized it was Dominic from one of the interviews I had I was a whole lot less pissy so I have a job trial on Sunday morning!  He told me that he tried out 2 people so far, one failed miserably and one was only half good.  I can top that or at the very least attempt to.

So today I have a few \”loose ends\” to tie up with a few people.  Laundry has to get done *ick* hate doing my damn laundry!  The this evening is bound to be good if I get that phone call.  I shall see!

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Debunking myths, rumours & other asst\’ stuff…

So last night I stayed up a little later then usual because I was having the most random, although interesting conversation with Mike on the phone.  Which may I add (should he happen to read this) his roommate & I won a \”bet\” about the weather.  Would it snow before or after Halloween, we both said before (has to stick & stay white on the ground according to him) and well sure enough its fucking snowing!  Welcome to your first winter in Mtl Mike, your in a for a treat (Toronto ain\’t go nufin on this place!) 😉

Anyway then as I\’m about to go to bed, I get a text message at 12:07am out of nowhere that said:  \”I need you to tell me more about the HSV  thing its freaking me out\”.  HSV (Herpes simplex virus) should only raise cause for ANY type of alarm IF its

HSV-2 which is genital herpes (that sounds like a ton of fun! relationship killer) whereas

HSV-1 isn\’t so bad because its nothing more then a cold sore *ahem*

So yeah said person (they know who they are and yes they do on occasion read my blog so no need to name names) apparently isn\’t talking to me anymore because of a fucking cold sore I had two months ago.   Except said person needs to grow a pair and actually say so, I don\’t go away that easily…  But yeah OK saying you have herpes is a hell of a lot more damming/cryptic/nasty whatever then saying you have a cold sore but guess what ladies & gentleman chances are that you have the virus too and don\’t even know it! Its as common as a cold and easily spread and more often then not people come in contact with it in their infancy.  However its So flipping minor, well at least hsv-1 is, that there\’s no legitimate reason to get your panties in a knot over it.

So yes while you can in theory get genital herpes from HSV-1 its STILL only the HSV-1 strain, NOT HSV-2 which is FAR more damming then HSV-1.  Its pretty simple, you have a cold sore/fever blister outbreak, keep your lips to yourself!  My Doctor & both my dentists told me that the only way HSV-1 can spread is *IF* you actually have an open cold sore, HSV-2 well again that\’s a whole other story.  I honestly couldn\’t imagine what on earth I would do if I ended up with this (its a tad graphic) all over my genitals *shudder*!  Christ I have a fit if I have razor burn, never mind anything else!

Thankfully, on the rare occasions I actually have a cold sore( I almost never get them, I\’ve only actually ever had 3); I get uber paranoid about bacteria (well I already am, hate germs) but I kick the precautions up an extra 100 notches to make damn sure that the cold sore stays in the microscopic section of my lip and NO WHERE ELSE.    Not only that, I see my obgyn every 6 months and even though my sex life is non exsistant and has been for a while I still get my blood work done every 3 months just because I\’m paranoid cautious, aside from the fact that I have to get regular stuff checked anyway (sugar levels & blah blah blah) because of that incident in the summer of my blood pressure being sky high & what not.   So I figure if your siphoning blood out of me anyway, might as well cover all the bases and thank God I am STD free and I WILL stay that way too!

So I think that\’s just really a total cop out…  This \”incident\” occured 2 months ago and its only creeping you out now?  WTF?  Makes no sense to me, other then the one comment that they made in conjunction with me possibly being dissapointed (with what I STILL have NO idea).  Well I have some semblance of a clue I suppose based solely on an assumption due to a comment they made once a while ago.  I got news for them however, I have ways of finding things out (sneaky stalker ninja Steph) and they\’re NO where near as hideous as they may think they are.  My opinion actually such as it is, not that it matters now anyway couldn\’t be MORE opposite but whatever…  Ah sometimes I DO love the internet 😉

I am also not the only one who thinks this whole situation is ridiculous either( not only that but I expected a little more from them and thought they were smarter then that)…  Whilst gabbing gossiping/venting with a few friends on MSN, this was the \’jist of it:
C i lack words in danish, Spanish, Swedish AND English to describe how low that is lol
D: He wont talk to you because of THAT? wtf?
Steph says:
I know! OHHHH I\”M SO pissed!
C says:you should be..
Steph says: Thanks! Glad someone agrees with me!
C says:that\’s just incredible lame lol i cant believe he ignores you because of some cold sores..
Steph: I\’ve only had one in the past 5 years, likely due to the extreme stress of Jason dying, the time before that was about a month before I moved here and the time before that I was like 11
C says: damn >.<

So that being said, went on another job interview after work today.  Jason the actual manager was off somewhere so I was talking to the sous Chef and that was well \”interesting\” to say the least.  Bottom line for me on that Bistro job? Its an insult to my qualifications/bank account and my all around personal integrity as a whole.  So came home and applied for a few more that I know I\’m not over qualified for (for a change!) and I need to call Dominic as well sometime soon to see about doing a trial run in his kitchen.  It was such a  sketchy interview though!  Not only that, a lot of time has passed between Saturday and today so I have my doubts but ain\’t going to know squat unless you try.  So try I shall…  I\’m running out of time here though.  My rent ain\’t going to wait or anything else for that matter!

On a final note, my lovely friend and I have a long running inside joke about heels & fancy drinks 😉  So while doing a shoot, she was the first person I thought of (with someone else a close second) when I seen this image (well one of them anyway).

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Why can\’t my life be average?

I mean seriously!   Or maybe it should be more like why can\’t *I* be normal?  Then again define normal:

adjective
1 normal
conforming with or constituting a norm or standard or level or type or social norm; not abnormal; \”serve wine at normal room temperature\”; \”normal diplomatic relations\”; \”normal working hours\”; \”normal word order\”; \”normal curiosity\”; \”the normal course o
2 normal
being approximately average or within certain limits in e.g. intelligence and development; \”a perfectly normal child\”; \”of normal intelligence\”; \”the most normal person I\’ve ever met\”

So that pretty much explains it right there, because I am oh so defiant against social norms…  But still…  Sometimes I wish that I was just an ordinary person living a normal boring ass life.  I however shall never be so fortunate now shall I?

So since its been a while…  I\’ll do some slight back tracking since I know EVERYONE is just SO interested in my life…  Saturday: Shane\’s birthday= awesome!  That\’s all I have to say about that.  Oh yeah I had a job interview on Saturday night, that was pretty random too.  A few odd questions, an ultra fast tour and I need to call him either tonight or Thursday to set up a trail run  to see if I like it or not.  Steph the breakfast Chef *barf* but we\’ll see…  If the price is right I\’ll be MORE then happy to order a bunch of boys around…;)  I also have another job interview on Thursday night at a Bistro, this should be interesting.  So I\’ll wait to call Dominic back after I talk to Jason.

Another random occurrence…  I almost never use MSN messenger for a number of reasons.  Generally because if I happen to be online I\’m busy and I don\’t want to be disrupted by anyone.  I almost always \”appear\” offline and go into what \”C\” refers to as: sneaky stalker ninja mode.  However Dustin sent me a text and asked me to go online so we could gab for a bit which is fine and well until I got some e-mail from guy named Sam something and well curiosity did get the best of me so I had to check it out since anyone who knows me know that I don\’t use that e-mail address for e-mail, just MSN therefore I never check it.  I still have no clue who this guy is, let alone how he ended up on my MSN.  So I\’m thinking its likely a really long time since I\’ve had some association with this guy.  He\’s pretty hot, but REALLY creepy…  Or maybe its just me who thinks its creepy?  I won\’t post said conversation in here, granted its pretty tempting but I shall refrain.  In any case, the 10 mins I had him on my MSN was a HUGE turn off, I mean seriously why are some (not all) guys act like total doucebags if they think someone\’s hot?  I don\’t get it… In any case that was just plain weird…

Another odd occurrence…  Face book status said something to the effect of being a Chef & pretty has its advantages; boys & jobs aren\’t usually hard to come by.  Then out of nowhere I get a message from my ex boyfriend (we\’re talking 16 years ago.  Yeah I\’m old STFU Micheal 😉 )  And this little gem turns up in my in-box( yes this would be one of those pics or it didn\’t happen moments!) lol:

So yeah, today Krystal and I were sitting outside talking about music from our youth (you know back in the dark ages when we had tapes lol)…  Which led to a whole lot of bad rapping/even worse dancing on the back fire escape…  Good times to be had though, it was pretty hilarious!   Such as: Vanilla Ice, Kriss Kross, (x2), House of Pain, Cyprus Hill, MC Hammer (my God those pants…) & of course who can forget ace of base\’s two hit wonder lol.  Moments like these are really going to make me miss my job there!

On a final note, I have PMS and its toying with FAR too many things…  One thing in particular has a terrible hold on me that I can\’t seem to get rid of and its driving me crazy!

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Realizations & ramblings…

1.I\’ve come to realize that my last ex:
is troubled, but taught me a lot.  For which I am grateful for, more then he\’ll likely ever know.

2. I\’ve come to realize that when I talk:
it\’s usually a complaint about something, I really need to stop doing that…
3. I\’ve come to realize that I love:
my mother more than anything in the world. <3

4. I\’ve come to realize that my friends:
are people I can\’t live without…my TRUE friends anyway.

5. I\’ve come to realize that I\’ve lost:

Too many things dear to me that I can never have back again.
6. I\’ve come to realize that I hate:
arrogance, ignorance, pride and self involvement.

7. I\’ve come to realize that a marriage is:
far from easy and takes a lot of work & effort on both sides!

8. I\’ve come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking:
too much, not enough or about something that\’s negative and stressing them out far too much.

9. I\’ve come to realize that I\’ll always:
be who I am and that\’s all there is too it.

10. I\’ve come to realize that I have a crush on:
the wrong people more often then not but sometimes I do OK!

11. I\’ve come to realize that the last time I truly cried was:
when Jason died, I\’ve never felt so heartbroken in my entire life then I did at that moment.

12. I\’ve come to realize that my cell phone is:
slightly overused as of late and a piece of crap.

13. I\’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:
I always go back to sleep for a couple of hours because i\’m in love with my bed when I can.

14. I\’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I:
think about how it\’s way too late & read to distract myself from overthinking and make myself sleepy.

15. I\’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
too much, finding a job, Micheal tying me up, how on earth I\’m going to pay my bills, my latest failure and how I think too much overall.

16. I\’ve come to realize that tonight I will:
spend time with myself trying to sort my life out yet again and send random text messages 🙂

17. I\’ve come to realize that my school is:
a thing of the past, I\’m done with it and I am actually looking forward to going back.

18. I\’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will have to:
keep looking for a new job and hopefully get some sleep and hang out with Shane & company for his birthday!

In other news, as of October 30th I no longer have a job…  So first thing I did was started looking for another one as soon as I got home!  I won\’t post the details here for professional reasons at this time.  I would very much prefer not to burn any bridges until I leave.

Thank God I have skills!  Everything happens for a reason and hopefully I end up with something better in the end.  I\’m very much looking forward to Shane\’s birthday Saturday!  He\’s a dear friend with the most lovely wife ever and I haven\’t seen him since my own birthday in June so it\’ll be nice to see him!